I will be back to doing the daily exercises soon. Now that doesn't mean I will be doing them everyday. I didn't before. But I will be back on a regular basis again starting next week, around Jan 4th-ish, give or take a day or 2. This is the only New Years resolution/goal I have, learning to astral travel.
Martin and I are settling in to our new work schedules. I mean the fact we actually have work schedules took some getting use to. Now we have to schedule in our Wii fit as well. Not sure how long I'll have a work schedule since I don't have to have one now. Andrew has been busy w/Martin on readings which has kept me busy writing on the blogs about his antics. That may end up being my job. Who knows, if I'm not working I just may be doing the exercises daily. It beats busing tables!
Until next time, see you next year and have a very Happy New Year!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Please Stay Tuned
I know I haven't been on here, but as we all know, life gets in the way sometimes of things we want to do. This is one of those times. I am currently working at a job that is physically demanding so I have been too exhausted to do the exercises. I have found trying to do them without the proper focus is a waste of time.
Martin' new job has him on a schedule now so when I quit working I'll be able to commit better to the astral travel exercises on a regular basis like before. With the holidays upon us, we will all be very busy. So please stay tuned and I will be back soon! I promise! I have a son to meet up with...and smack! :-D
Martin' new job has him on a schedule now so when I quit working I'll be able to commit better to the astral travel exercises on a regular basis like before. With the holidays upon us, we will all be very busy. So please stay tuned and I will be back soon! I promise! I have a son to meet up with...and smack! :-D
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Day 17
While I was listening to the brain wave generator and working on all the exercises that I have worked up to during these past few weeks, the damn computer just cuts out on me! I like using the brain wave generator because it drowns out a lot of noise so I can focus on the exercises at hand. While it doesn't completely drown out the barking of one co-dependent 12 lb wiener dog, it does tone it down quite a bit.
I was able to do about 25 mins though, so that was good. There was no reason for the computer to just cut off like it did. Such is life with electronics and metaphysics.
What I discovered is that I think I want to spend more time on the exercises I have already learned before I move on, so I will be staying on the past few days exercises before moving on. Until I can do the full body energy bouncy exercise, and a few others more solid, I don't want to move on.
Today I was only able to mildly feel any of the energy work I was doing so that is when I decided I needed more time to master them. I don't want to do this half ass. When I have an OBE, I want it to be a powerful, in control one, no dickin around!
I did the mind calming exercise with the numbers. I just worked on #1 & 2. You focus on one number at a time and nothing else. When it came to the #2 all I could hear was "hello #2." It was a scene from Scrubs I saw the other night. Thank goodness I didn't go off on a daydream like JD always does on Scrubs!
Surprisingly I found the number exercise to be fairly easy. I think because I have noticed that I can empty my mind while doing the energy exercises pretty well. Andrew was the king of emptying his mind. As a teenager, that is quite a feat! The 1st time he did it, he was able to do it for 5 mins! THAT'S HUGE! I wanna be like him when I grow up!
So for the next few days of exercises, I will be going over the same exercises and I will probably just put the date in the title. Maybe I am having trouble with all these exercises because I have not been doing the reading material as well, like I should. Oh well, it is what it is folks.
I was able to do about 25 mins though, so that was good. There was no reason for the computer to just cut off like it did. Such is life with electronics and metaphysics.
What I discovered is that I think I want to spend more time on the exercises I have already learned before I move on, so I will be staying on the past few days exercises before moving on. Until I can do the full body energy bouncy exercise, and a few others more solid, I don't want to move on.
Today I was only able to mildly feel any of the energy work I was doing so that is when I decided I needed more time to master them. I don't want to do this half ass. When I have an OBE, I want it to be a powerful, in control one, no dickin around!
I did the mind calming exercise with the numbers. I just worked on #1 & 2. You focus on one number at a time and nothing else. When it came to the #2 all I could hear was "hello #2." It was a scene from Scrubs I saw the other night. Thank goodness I didn't go off on a daydream like JD always does on Scrubs!
Surprisingly I found the number exercise to be fairly easy. I think because I have noticed that I can empty my mind while doing the energy exercises pretty well. Andrew was the king of emptying his mind. As a teenager, that is quite a feat! The 1st time he did it, he was able to do it for 5 mins! THAT'S HUGE! I wanna be like him when I grow up!
So for the next few days of exercises, I will be going over the same exercises and I will probably just put the date in the title. Maybe I am having trouble with all these exercises because I have not been doing the reading material as well, like I should. Oh well, it is what it is folks.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Day 16
While this is a 90 day plan, not even the authors expect you to do it in 90 days! Reading about the quieting the mind exercise, they mention that it may take days or even weeks to get the hang of it. What's good is that you can go at your own pace with this. I'm still hoping to have a spontaneous OBE during one of these exercises.
Learning to quiet the mind has so many benefits. While these exercises can be overwhelming at times, I can see the benefit to them on so many levels, not just for an OBE. Like quieting the ego's nonsense. That would be nice for a change.
Today I did the whole body awareness, energy sponging, raising energy, and bouncy energy while listening to the brain wave generator that is still optional at this point. If I didn't feel a whole lot of energy going on, I went back to the area and did it again until I did. It took a couple of tries but I finally felt it. If I found my mind wandering off into another direction, I just brought my attention back to relaxing. That seems to help.
I did the breathing in white light and exhaling any toxins while also focusing on deeper relaxation. All this really helps you to tune into body, it's pretty cool. I did the breathing chakra exercise w/Martin. I was able to breathe in & visualize energy coming up through my toes and on up to my crown chakra. Then let it build in my crown chakra before exhaling and releasing the energy to my sacral chakra. I did this for a few minutes. You do it right and long enough, you can get a buzz! lol An energy buzz not a hyperventilating one, although I suppose those ain't bad either.
I didn't get to do the mind quieting exercise today. I think I will work on it tomorrow since this is the one that can take days, weeks r even months. It has to do with focusing on numbers up to 12 in a circle on a blank wall. You start with just the #1, then adding 2, then 3 the 1st time out. I have to keep track of the time between the numbers of how long I can keep my mind blank. That's all I may have time for tomorrow.
It still irritates me that I have to do all this just to see my son again. I miss just being able to go in his room and give him a hug. It irritates the living hell outta me that it's not that simple anymore. But I guess all these exercises will make me a better person in different areas of my life. Astral traveling can benefit me in a lot of ways too, learning much higher level information to help me grow and evolve here.
Here's to emptying that pretty lil head of mine!
Learning to quiet the mind has so many benefits. While these exercises can be overwhelming at times, I can see the benefit to them on so many levels, not just for an OBE. Like quieting the ego's nonsense. That would be nice for a change.
Today I did the whole body awareness, energy sponging, raising energy, and bouncy energy while listening to the brain wave generator that is still optional at this point. If I didn't feel a whole lot of energy going on, I went back to the area and did it again until I did. It took a couple of tries but I finally felt it. If I found my mind wandering off into another direction, I just brought my attention back to relaxing. That seems to help.
I did the breathing in white light and exhaling any toxins while also focusing on deeper relaxation. All this really helps you to tune into body, it's pretty cool. I did the breathing chakra exercise w/Martin. I was able to breathe in & visualize energy coming up through my toes and on up to my crown chakra. Then let it build in my crown chakra before exhaling and releasing the energy to my sacral chakra. I did this for a few minutes. You do it right and long enough, you can get a buzz! lol An energy buzz not a hyperventilating one, although I suppose those ain't bad either.
I didn't get to do the mind quieting exercise today. I think I will work on it tomorrow since this is the one that can take days, weeks r even months. It has to do with focusing on numbers up to 12 in a circle on a blank wall. You start with just the #1, then adding 2, then 3 the 1st time out. I have to keep track of the time between the numbers of how long I can keep my mind blank. That's all I may have time for tomorrow.
It still irritates me that I have to do all this just to see my son again. I miss just being able to go in his room and give him a hug. It irritates the living hell outta me that it's not that simple anymore. But I guess all these exercises will make me a better person in different areas of my life. Astral traveling can benefit me in a lot of ways too, learning much higher level information to help me grow and evolve here.
Here's to emptying that pretty lil head of mine!
Monday, November 2, 2009
Day 15
Yay! I've made it to Day 15! AND it's only taken me how many weeks to reach it? That's a rhetorical question just so you know. I really need to change the whole mastering astral travel in 90 days title to mastering astral travel one of these days!
Now going into week 3 I'm working on quieting the mind chatter. Wish I could just tie up and gag that mind chatter mouth piece, but NO! There's all kind of exercises to work on for that too. *sigh* Why doesn't this stuff come easy to me? Why doesn't anything come easy to me. I've been working on mind chatter stuff anyway and making head way with it, so that's good. Martin helped me today with new breathing exercises. With these breathing exercises I am suppose to be storing energy in my sacral chakra. Now that I think about it, I didn't really feel energy being stored there today. Note to self, work on feeling that tomorrow.
In my reading material before starting week 3, they were discussing lucid dreaming and how you can turn that into an OBE. I thought about trying it, but I don't sleep that well as it is, so I don't think I need to stress myself out anymore trying to work on OBE's when I'm trying to work on just getting some plain old fashion sleep.
I did the usual brain wave generator today. Marin put it on one of the week 3 ones. Oh yes, there are several to choose from.It sounded the same to me. Tomorrow I will work on feeling more of the stored energy and maybe even do the additional brain wave thingy for the calming of mind chatter. Oh yes, they have a brain waver for that too. I didn't have time to do it today along w/everything else. They actually have exercises they'd like you to do for 90 mins if possible. Yea, not quite there yet! You really have to be aware and not be tired to do these exercises to get the most out of them. If you are tired, you'll just fall asleep, the irony of it all! Until next time...
It's All Good!
Now going into week 3 I'm working on quieting the mind chatter. Wish I could just tie up and gag that mind chatter mouth piece, but NO! There's all kind of exercises to work on for that too. *sigh* Why doesn't this stuff come easy to me? Why doesn't anything come easy to me. I've been working on mind chatter stuff anyway and making head way with it, so that's good. Martin helped me today with new breathing exercises. With these breathing exercises I am suppose to be storing energy in my sacral chakra. Now that I think about it, I didn't really feel energy being stored there today. Note to self, work on feeling that tomorrow.
In my reading material before starting week 3, they were discussing lucid dreaming and how you can turn that into an OBE. I thought about trying it, but I don't sleep that well as it is, so I don't think I need to stress myself out anymore trying to work on OBE's when I'm trying to work on just getting some plain old fashion sleep.
I did the usual brain wave generator today. Marin put it on one of the week 3 ones. Oh yes, there are several to choose from.It sounded the same to me. Tomorrow I will work on feeling more of the stored energy and maybe even do the additional brain wave thingy for the calming of mind chatter. Oh yes, they have a brain waver for that too. I didn't have time to do it today along w/everything else. They actually have exercises they'd like you to do for 90 mins if possible. Yea, not quite there yet! You really have to be aware and not be tired to do these exercises to get the most out of them. If you are tired, you'll just fall asleep, the irony of it all! Until next time...
It's All Good!
Friday, October 30, 2009
Oops! Day 14 Again
As you can imagine, Oct is a tough month for me. I do what I can to change the energy of these tough days, but before and after can be hard for me. I thought I was on Day 14. Oh well, doing it again can only help, right?
Today's brain wave generator exercise was around 30 mins. I was able to raise energy with my awareness in my feet and legs although I struggled trying to do the bouncy leg exercise. I had a hard time feeling it all the way to my hips but was able to briefly and subtlety finally. Could feel it in my hands of course, but again, the arms were a bit of a struggle. I was able to feel energy in my spine with my awareness, but struggled with the cervical part of my spine. Martin talked me through it when he came in and I was able to feel it. I could feel my crown chakra a buzzing throughout most of the exercise.
I laid on Andrew's bed again today, but I think I will go back to his chair because I feel more energy there. Probably because he spent years in that chair meditating, and only a few months in his bed.(that I'm still paying for!) I get the energy swaying and the roller coaster feeling when I am in his chair. So back to the chair I go!
My intent is to do Day 15 tomorrow before going out Trick or Treating with Andrew's friend Daniel and Andrew's two other friends' little brother Cameron.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Today's brain wave generator exercise was around 30 mins. I was able to raise energy with my awareness in my feet and legs although I struggled trying to do the bouncy leg exercise. I had a hard time feeling it all the way to my hips but was able to briefly and subtlety finally. Could feel it in my hands of course, but again, the arms were a bit of a struggle. I was able to feel energy in my spine with my awareness, but struggled with the cervical part of my spine. Martin talked me through it when he came in and I was able to feel it. I could feel my crown chakra a buzzing throughout most of the exercise.
I laid on Andrew's bed again today, but I think I will go back to his chair because I feel more energy there. Probably because he spent years in that chair meditating, and only a few months in his bed.(that I'm still paying for!) I get the energy swaying and the roller coaster feeling when I am in his chair. So back to the chair I go!
My intent is to do Day 15 tomorrow before going out Trick or Treating with Andrew's friend Daniel and Andrew's two other friends' little brother Cameron.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Day 14
FINALLY! I'm back. While I am exhausted today after yesterday's Int'l It's All Good Day festivities, I wanted to get back into the swing of things. Yesterday was a beautiful day of celebration of an amazing young man, an Avatar, my son.
Today I did over 35 mins of the brain wave generator but did it lying on Andrew's bed instead of his meditation chair. I didn't work on anything after the brain wave generator w/Martin like I normally do, but accomplished a lot anyway. It was a bit tougher today to focus but I did it.
My main focus was working on the full body bouncing. I started with the feet. Today the bouncy leg exercise felt like what I can only describe as 'fuzzy' energy moving through my legs. I had a hard time holding the body awareness focus but if I can do it even for even a few seconds, I consider that a win!
I moved up to my hands and arms. I felt the energy swirling intensely in my palms. That always feels cool! I love that feeling. I struggled moving the energy throughout my arms but I eventually managed to do it for a few seconds.
I was actually able to feel the energy bouncing up and down in my spine! Although I wasn't able to feel much in the cervical part of my spine, not sure why. Then I moved on to trying to do a full body bouncing. I was shocked when I was able to do it for a few seconds. I then felt a bit of pressure in different parts of my body. Another good sign. Well, at least I hope it is, and it's not actually a stroke coming on!lol I assume not since I am able to type.
Tomorrow is the Light The Night walk so we'll see if I have time to do Day 14 again or move onto Day 15. Until next time...
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Today I did over 35 mins of the brain wave generator but did it lying on Andrew's bed instead of his meditation chair. I didn't work on anything after the brain wave generator w/Martin like I normally do, but accomplished a lot anyway. It was a bit tougher today to focus but I did it.
My main focus was working on the full body bouncing. I started with the feet. Today the bouncy leg exercise felt like what I can only describe as 'fuzzy' energy moving through my legs. I had a hard time holding the body awareness focus but if I can do it even for even a few seconds, I consider that a win!
I moved up to my hands and arms. I felt the energy swirling intensely in my palms. That always feels cool! I love that feeling. I struggled moving the energy throughout my arms but I eventually managed to do it for a few seconds.
I was actually able to feel the energy bouncing up and down in my spine! Although I wasn't able to feel much in the cervical part of my spine, not sure why. Then I moved on to trying to do a full body bouncing. I was shocked when I was able to do it for a few seconds. I then felt a bit of pressure in different parts of my body. Another good sign. Well, at least I hope it is, and it's not actually a stroke coming on!lol I assume not since I am able to type.
Tomorrow is the Light The Night walk so we'll see if I have time to do Day 14 again or move onto Day 15. Until next time...
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Taking A Wee Break
I had every intention of doing Day 14 today but couldn't pass up spending time with the daughter. It was sushi Tues, then we went on a 2 mile walk to the grocery store to get things for our 2nd Annual Int'l It's All Good Day celebration, Welcome Home party and concert on Thurs. in honor of Andrew.
I will be busy the next few days getting ready for Thursday and dealing with the emotions that come with this, that I won't have the time, or be in the right frame of mind to do the exercises. I am hoping to get back to it on Friday. Sat is the Light The Night Walk, another emotional day, so who knows. BUT I have not given up! NO WAY! I am going to see this to the end! Since I haven't been on in a few days, I wanted to let you know I am still doing this.
Here is the info on our concert, we will be streaming it live on the net!
Have u always wanted to see our concert inspired by our son, but didn't live close by?? Now u can! We are offering pay for view for our 2nd Annual Int'l It's All Good Day celebration concert, Only Love Is Real LIVE on the net! I share powerful stories, then Martin shares a song that Andrew has given him since he crossed. Just click below for more info and to get your ticket! Join us for an incredible evening as we take u on a journey through life, love & beyond!
Date: Thurs Oct 22- 2nd Annual Int'l It's All Good Day!
Time: 7:30p.m.-9p.m
Place: THE INTERNET
Cost: $10 to help cover professional video taping costs
Tickets
For more info on the concert go to:
Concert
I will be busy the next few days getting ready for Thursday and dealing with the emotions that come with this, that I won't have the time, or be in the right frame of mind to do the exercises. I am hoping to get back to it on Friday. Sat is the Light The Night Walk, another emotional day, so who knows. BUT I have not given up! NO WAY! I am going to see this to the end! Since I haven't been on in a few days, I wanted to let you know I am still doing this.
Here is the info on our concert, we will be streaming it live on the net!
Have u always wanted to see our concert inspired by our son, but didn't live close by?? Now u can! We are offering pay for view for our 2nd Annual Int'l It's All Good Day celebration concert, Only Love Is Real LIVE on the net! I share powerful stories, then Martin shares a song that Andrew has given him since he crossed. Just click below for more info and to get your ticket! Join us for an incredible evening as we take u on a journey through life, love & beyond!
Date: Thurs Oct 22- 2nd Annual Int'l It's All Good Day!
Time: 7:30p.m.-9p.m
Place: THE INTERNET
Cost: $10 to help cover professional video taping costs
Tickets
For more info on the concert go to:
Concert
Thursday, October 15, 2009
DAY 13
Hmmmm today's exercise was interesting. Martin said he was going to leave me on the brain wave generator for 30 mins. Instead it was more like 40! I doubled my time! It did fly by.
I was feeling all kinds of wild sensations. First, it felt like my energy legs were breaking free. I felt this swaying sensation in my energy legs. It felt like when your leg goes to sleep and you try to walk with them, only more subtle. It felt pretty cool.
Pretty much the same sensations in the arms. This time with the chakras I felt a bit of pressure and buzzing in my heart chakra, in my solar plexus it felt like I was being tugged through there, now that was wild! With my throat chakra I felt like I had an energy collar on, that felt bazaar. I felt energy in my crown chakra and also in my 3rd eye. There was all kind of sensations going on today.
I was able to feel the energy bouncing in my spine, it was subtle but it was there. Then I worked on feeling the energy throughout my body. Little did I know that, that was the full body bouncing exercise. I almost felt like I was levitating outta the chair! I didn't feel the floor beneath my feet.
The next 2 days will be pretty much the same exercises. Hopefully I'll have even more intense energy going on! I think there are many more benefits to these exercises than meets the eye. I noticed that my mind chatter is diminishing, that's HUGE! AND I haven't even started the mind quieting exercises yet.
It's All Good!
I was feeling all kinds of wild sensations. First, it felt like my energy legs were breaking free. I felt this swaying sensation in my energy legs. It felt like when your leg goes to sleep and you try to walk with them, only more subtle. It felt pretty cool.
Pretty much the same sensations in the arms. This time with the chakras I felt a bit of pressure and buzzing in my heart chakra, in my solar plexus it felt like I was being tugged through there, now that was wild! With my throat chakra I felt like I had an energy collar on, that felt bazaar. I felt energy in my crown chakra and also in my 3rd eye. There was all kind of sensations going on today.
I was able to feel the energy bouncing in my spine, it was subtle but it was there. Then I worked on feeling the energy throughout my body. Little did I know that, that was the full body bouncing exercise. I almost felt like I was levitating outta the chair! I didn't feel the floor beneath my feet.
The next 2 days will be pretty much the same exercises. Hopefully I'll have even more intense energy going on! I think there are many more benefits to these exercises than meets the eye. I noticed that my mind chatter is diminishing, that's HUGE! AND I haven't even started the mind quieting exercises yet.
It's All Good!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Day 12
Did the brain wave generator for 20 mins, tomorrow we move onto the next brain waver. WoOoOHoOOOoo I will be starting week 3! Today I felt some interesting energy going on in my head. I think Andrew was touching my crown chakra. I slightly felt the roller coaster feeling again. This stuff is better than drugs or alcohol! Not that I ever did drugs.
Today I wanted to focus on my spine stimulation and spine bouncy exercises. I have the arms and legs down pretty good. I do the spine exercises with Martin. It's great having a psychic doing these exercises with you because he can see what is going on. While I feel some energy going on, I wasn't sure if I was really getting the hang of it but Martin assured me that I was. He could see the energy flowing and no blocks were in my spine. He split the spine into 3 sections, cervical, thoracic, and lumbar, and I did feel energy in each section. It was the bouncy exercise I found challenging. It was very subtle but I could feel something.
Martin does the exercises with me and receives the benefit too. He has been having neck pain and after the spine exercises today, it was gone. SO I guess the author was correct when he said ailments could heal doing this energy work! I was suppose to do the full body bouncy exercise, but Martin thinks it would be best if I did that lying down, and since I was already in Andrew's meditation chair and relaxed, I didn't want to start all over. So tomorrow I will lie on Andrew's bed for the exercises. Looking forward to it!
Today I wanted to focus on my spine stimulation and spine bouncy exercises. I have the arms and legs down pretty good. I do the spine exercises with Martin. It's great having a psychic doing these exercises with you because he can see what is going on. While I feel some energy going on, I wasn't sure if I was really getting the hang of it but Martin assured me that I was. He could see the energy flowing and no blocks were in my spine. He split the spine into 3 sections, cervical, thoracic, and lumbar, and I did feel energy in each section. It was the bouncy exercise I found challenging. It was very subtle but I could feel something.
Martin does the exercises with me and receives the benefit too. He has been having neck pain and after the spine exercises today, it was gone. SO I guess the author was correct when he said ailments could heal doing this energy work! I was suppose to do the full body bouncy exercise, but Martin thinks it would be best if I did that lying down, and since I was already in Andrew's meditation chair and relaxed, I didn't want to start all over. So tomorrow I will lie on Andrew's bed for the exercises. Looking forward to it!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Day 11 again
Sooooo today's exercises were interesting. I've been reading the book 'Astral Dynamics,' since they recommend that you have an astral traveling book to read as well while you are working on astral traveling. It would appear I was right! I really am getting the symptoms of having an OBE! I was excited about reading that!
Today Martin sets me up with the brain wave generator. I was looking forward to it since I am really getting the hang of relaxing and body stimulation of the feet, legs, hands and arms. I had been pretty relaxed, I periodically do a check as I work on the body stimulation. My body starts to feel 'light' and then I feel this sensation like someone was pushing my abdomen out from the INSIDE! It was pretty freaky deaky...I liked it! It was interesting!
I also had the sensations the Astral Dynamics book talks about it. I was feeling my energy sway and then like butterflies in my stomach and chest area, like when riding a roller coaster.
Martin had to just open the door to Andrew's bedroom, which brings my awareness to the room since my mind is awake and my body feels like lead. Martin was on a reading and couldn't do the spine exercise with me. I stayed on the brain wave generator for about another 5 mins just in case Martin could come back. He did not.
Another interesting thing happened when Martin opened the door. While I was able to get the legs and arms exercises going, I struggled with my spine stimulation yet again. BUT when Martin opened the door I felt all this energy in my lower back, it almost felt like someone was massaging me there! I also felt some cool energy going on around my head. I think I have some cool OBE energy going on here! :-D
I ended up not doing the spine exercise with Martin today. Once I got up, I didn't want to go thru all the relaxation stuff again. I will probably work on it tonight when I go to bed.
Who knows, I may need to pack my astral travel bags soon!
Today Martin sets me up with the brain wave generator. I was looking forward to it since I am really getting the hang of relaxing and body stimulation of the feet, legs, hands and arms. I had been pretty relaxed, I periodically do a check as I work on the body stimulation. My body starts to feel 'light' and then I feel this sensation like someone was pushing my abdomen out from the INSIDE! It was pretty freaky deaky...I liked it! It was interesting!
I also had the sensations the Astral Dynamics book talks about it. I was feeling my energy sway and then like butterflies in my stomach and chest area, like when riding a roller coaster.
Martin had to just open the door to Andrew's bedroom, which brings my awareness to the room since my mind is awake and my body feels like lead. Martin was on a reading and couldn't do the spine exercise with me. I stayed on the brain wave generator for about another 5 mins just in case Martin could come back. He did not.
Another interesting thing happened when Martin opened the door. While I was able to get the legs and arms exercises going, I struggled with my spine stimulation yet again. BUT when Martin opened the door I felt all this energy in my lower back, it almost felt like someone was massaging me there! I also felt some cool energy going on around my head. I think I have some cool OBE energy going on here! :-D
I ended up not doing the spine exercise with Martin today. Once I got up, I didn't want to go thru all the relaxation stuff again. I will probably work on it tonight when I go to bed.
Who knows, I may need to pack my astral travel bags soon!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Day 11
During the brain wave generator today I did the usual body relaxation, breathe exercises, body stimulation in legs and arms AND bouncy leg and arm exercises. Having taught aerobics in the 80's (didn't everybody?) and meditation classes, breathe work and relaxation is not unfamiliar to me. I think this book is geared for real newbies to this all.
It was interesting today with the bouncy leg exercises, I was feeling like energy pops in my legs. That was cool and interesting. Martin said it was the energy ball moving in the bouncy leg exercise. Well, that's not what I have been feeling previously. I'm guessing the more I do this, the more I will feel? Sounds like a good explanation to me anyway. I was even feeling energy in my lower back, getting ready for the spine exercises I guess.
I noticed my energy body starting to move, kinda swaying as I was getting lost in the brain wave generator noise. It felt cool and I got excited thinking this may be it! So I was kinda jerked back to my body awareness. Not sure, but I think that was an early sign of an OBE! YAY!
Doing the spine stimulation may take a few days. The book even said it may take a few days to master that one. Soooo there may be a few day 11's. While I did feel energy in my spine, it wasn't in a consistent stream of energy and it was faint. I want to make sure I master each of the day's exercises before I move on to the next day's.
These exercises have layers of benefits. Not only are they good for OBE, it is also great for your health! Especially the spine exercises. We know the spine is like a camcorder of your life. Just ask Steve Ward, chiropractor extraordinaire in Long Bch Ca., who reads peoples' spines and can tell you WHY you have a certain dis-ease. So it makes sense by learning to move energy throughout your body and having body awareness, you can quite possibly relieve a lot of health issues! The more I do these exercises, the more energy will flow easier throughout my body. AND when you have no energy blockages, the healthier you are! :-D I didn't know there would be these many benefits learning to astral travel! Coolio! I think I'm going to start to really look forward to these exercises now!
It's all good!
It was interesting today with the bouncy leg exercises, I was feeling like energy pops in my legs. That was cool and interesting. Martin said it was the energy ball moving in the bouncy leg exercise. Well, that's not what I have been feeling previously. I'm guessing the more I do this, the more I will feel? Sounds like a good explanation to me anyway. I was even feeling energy in my lower back, getting ready for the spine exercises I guess.
I noticed my energy body starting to move, kinda swaying as I was getting lost in the brain wave generator noise. It felt cool and I got excited thinking this may be it! So I was kinda jerked back to my body awareness. Not sure, but I think that was an early sign of an OBE! YAY!
Doing the spine stimulation may take a few days. The book even said it may take a few days to master that one. Soooo there may be a few day 11's. While I did feel energy in my spine, it wasn't in a consistent stream of energy and it was faint. I want to make sure I master each of the day's exercises before I move on to the next day's.
These exercises have layers of benefits. Not only are they good for OBE, it is also great for your health! Especially the spine exercises. We know the spine is like a camcorder of your life. Just ask Steve Ward, chiropractor extraordinaire in Long Bch Ca., who reads peoples' spines and can tell you WHY you have a certain dis-ease. So it makes sense by learning to move energy throughout your body and having body awareness, you can quite possibly relieve a lot of health issues! The more I do these exercises, the more energy will flow easier throughout my body. AND when you have no energy blockages, the healthier you are! :-D I didn't know there would be these many benefits learning to astral travel! Coolio! I think I'm going to start to really look forward to these exercises now!
It's all good!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Day 10
I am finding that I prefer doing the brain wave generator because its a great time to work on relaxation, breath work, body awareness (amazing how much tenseness we hold in our bodies!) and going over the exercises from the day before. Today I also worked on my chakras. Can't hurt, right? I also felt a swaying in my energy going on. Hmm maybe the astral body practicing breaking free? Hope so!
Today's exercises with Martin were all about the arms. The hands are a gimme, but today it was bouncy arm exercises time. Again, I was able to do it, while subtle, I could feel it. Martin mentioned that tomorrow I was going to be working on my spine. I was like "WHAT?!" Sounds a bit hard to me, how am I gonna pull this one off!? Then I got a sensation in my spine. I thought, "Ok cool! Maybe I can do this!" Well, I am sitting in the meditation chairs of all meditation chairs! An Avatar's meditation chair that was used ALL of the time by an Avatar. Then I wonder why I don't just astral project immediately while sitting in such a powerful chair. As I was wondering that, I heard, "It's about the journey and what would you have to blog about then?" Yea, yea, yea, blah, blah, blah! Hmmm I dunno maybe I could blog about all the cool places I get to go to on other dimensions? My tour of my castle on the Other Side? My time with said Avatar perhaps? I'd have plenty to blog about. But nooooooo I gotta go through the whole process first, no spontaneous astral projection for me. Whateva!
I can tell that the energy is building not only because I do these exercises in Andrew's room, but because I do them in there everyday or so, and my body seems to know it's work time. Repetition is a HUGE help in these kind of exercises! Don't think I'll need to pack my astral bags just yet, but I'm getting there.
Today's exercises with Martin were all about the arms. The hands are a gimme, but today it was bouncy arm exercises time. Again, I was able to do it, while subtle, I could feel it. Martin mentioned that tomorrow I was going to be working on my spine. I was like "WHAT?!" Sounds a bit hard to me, how am I gonna pull this one off!? Then I got a sensation in my spine. I thought, "Ok cool! Maybe I can do this!" Well, I am sitting in the meditation chairs of all meditation chairs! An Avatar's meditation chair that was used ALL of the time by an Avatar. Then I wonder why I don't just astral project immediately while sitting in such a powerful chair. As I was wondering that, I heard, "It's about the journey and what would you have to blog about then?" Yea, yea, yea, blah, blah, blah! Hmmm I dunno maybe I could blog about all the cool places I get to go to on other dimensions? My tour of my castle on the Other Side? My time with said Avatar perhaps? I'd have plenty to blog about. But nooooooo I gotta go through the whole process first, no spontaneous astral projection for me. Whateva!
I can tell that the energy is building not only because I do these exercises in Andrew's room, but because I do them in there everyday or so, and my body seems to know it's work time. Repetition is a HUGE help in these kind of exercises! Don't think I'll need to pack my astral bags just yet, but I'm getting there.
Day 9
I am remembering my dreams upon waking which is good. If I wait too long to write them down I don't remember a lot of the details, but at least I am remembering them. AND that's good enough for me!
Day 9 I did on Oct 6th. I did the brain wave generator. I find I can get a lot done during that. I work on the body relaxation. Then I moved onto the bouncy leg exercise (is that a technical term?) I find I am getting the hang of it pretty well. I did the stimulating hand exercise and felt it move up my arm. It's like my body knows what to do.
Afterward I did the arm stimulation exercises with Martin. I have to create feeling in one arm with my awareness, then the other, then split my awareness between both of them. I am always surprised when I can do it. Now my toes, legs, fingers, hands and arms are like hallow tubes! The sensation is subtle but I do feel it.
Something interesting happened while I was focusing on the leg bouncy exercises, I felt energy in my pelvic area. Martin did tell me that would be an area that we will be working on soon. It seems like any area he mentions that we will be working on, I get sensations in that area. That is a good sign that I am moving right along.
Day 9 I did on Oct 6th. I did the brain wave generator. I find I can get a lot done during that. I work on the body relaxation. Then I moved onto the bouncy leg exercise (is that a technical term?) I find I am getting the hang of it pretty well. I did the stimulating hand exercise and felt it move up my arm. It's like my body knows what to do.
Afterward I did the arm stimulation exercises with Martin. I have to create feeling in one arm with my awareness, then the other, then split my awareness between both of them. I am always surprised when I can do it. Now my toes, legs, fingers, hands and arms are like hallow tubes! The sensation is subtle but I do feel it.
Something interesting happened while I was focusing on the leg bouncy exercises, I felt energy in my pelvic area. Martin did tell me that would be an area that we will be working on soon. It seems like any area he mentions that we will be working on, I get sensations in that area. That is a good sign that I am moving right along.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Day 8
I'm baaaaaack! Took a few days off with Martin's b-day and all. I just wasn't in the right frame of mind to work on the exercises. I am finding that I need to let this information sink in a few days before I continue sometimes. It's all good! :-)
I do remember part of my dream last night. I remembered more when I woke up and shoulda written it down but didn't. Bad astral student! I remember I was with a woman I know from a company she use to be with. that I am still with. The gist of the dream was that I was at a training she was doing. That's all I got for now on that dream. I think I'm going to find my dream journal and keep it by the bed like I should. I think the interesting thing here is, is that I am actually remembering my dreams more. For quite awhile I was not. Since I set out to do this, I am remembering something almost every night so far. Good astral student!
Today I did the 2nd wk optional brain wave generator. Didn't notice a difference in it, sounded the same to me. Hope it's not some kind gov't plot for mind control! hehehe While listening to it I focus on relaxation and energy body awareness. I am finding it easier to do the lower body stimulation with my awareness during the brain wave generator. I found that interesting how quick I am able to do it now. Didn't think I'd ever get the hang of it.
When Martin comes in after the brain wave generator, he talks me through the exercises.The breathing exercises are getting a little more intense but I'm use to it due to taking Martin's meditation classes. Then we moved onto body stimulation with my awareness in the hands. I found that I would get the sensations right before Martin would say it.I thought that was cool. The hands are easy for me anyway. I started feeling serious sensations when we were in All Children's Hospital. When I would go back to the Clown House to sleep, I would feel really intense energy swirling in my hands. It felt cool, didn't know what it was, but it was cool. Today I could feel an energy ball in my hands and I started to get heated up. Either it was from menopause or being a Reiki II practitioner. Either way I am feeling it and that, as Martha Stewart would say, "It's a good thing!"
So it would appear that I am coming along nicely in my astral travel learning! WoOt WOoT!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I do remember part of my dream last night. I remembered more when I woke up and shoulda written it down but didn't. Bad astral student! I remember I was with a woman I know from a company she use to be with. that I am still with. The gist of the dream was that I was at a training she was doing. That's all I got for now on that dream. I think I'm going to find my dream journal and keep it by the bed like I should. I think the interesting thing here is, is that I am actually remembering my dreams more. For quite awhile I was not. Since I set out to do this, I am remembering something almost every night so far. Good astral student!
Today I did the 2nd wk optional brain wave generator. Didn't notice a difference in it, sounded the same to me. Hope it's not some kind gov't plot for mind control! hehehe While listening to it I focus on relaxation and energy body awareness. I am finding it easier to do the lower body stimulation with my awareness during the brain wave generator. I found that interesting how quick I am able to do it now. Didn't think I'd ever get the hang of it.
When Martin comes in after the brain wave generator, he talks me through the exercises.The breathing exercises are getting a little more intense but I'm use to it due to taking Martin's meditation classes. Then we moved onto body stimulation with my awareness in the hands. I found that I would get the sensations right before Martin would say it.I thought that was cool. The hands are easy for me anyway. I started feeling serious sensations when we were in All Children's Hospital. When I would go back to the Clown House to sleep, I would feel really intense energy swirling in my hands. It felt cool, didn't know what it was, but it was cool. Today I could feel an energy ball in my hands and I started to get heated up. Either it was from menopause or being a Reiki II practitioner. Either way I am feeling it and that, as Martha Stewart would say, "It's a good thing!"
So it would appear that I am coming along nicely in my astral travel learning! WoOt WOoT!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Day 7 again
Martin said I should keep the days' exercises with the book's number day, so if I repeat a day, put that as the title.
I remember part of my dreams last night. It seems I have a heck of a lot of them in just one night. Like I remember hanging out with Adam Richman from Man V Food. Don't remember the details tho. Probably him trying to get me to eat something ridiculously hard! Oops better rephrase that, trying to eat...well there's no way for me to write that and not have it sound dirty so I give up. I tell ya, I have a whole new respect for him after I nearly exploded at the Melting Pot! AND I shared my meal with Elatia! What can I say, I'm a wuss!
After that dream, I remember being at a person's house I know, but not the house she really lives in. We were trying to get out of the house to go get something to eat. Dunno why we had to try, like what was making it difficult. We felt a trembling of the house and wondered what the heck it was. An Earth quake perhaps? Nope! It was a moose running by. *What?* While startling to say the least, seeing this moose so close was magnificent! He was majestic! This house did have some woods around it so it wasn't like this moose came outta no where, that would be silly.
When we finally make the plaza where we wanted to eat, this chef/owner of the restaurant would not allow us in. Something to do w/a special function. Hmmm maybe something similar to Bill Clinton coming to the restaurant where my friend works? Only I was allowed into her restaurant & got to meet Bill. The funny thing about this chef/owner he was yelling at us in a foreign language and he was pissed we didn't understand him. As we are leaving because he kept shooing us away, I was making fun of him because he was being such a jackass and being one in a foreign language & expecting us to understand. Then I woke up. Yea, no epiphanies there!
Today I decided to do Day 7 again since I felt like I didn't quite get the hang of yesterday's exercises with the whole bouncie legs thingy. My legs don't actually bounce, I am suppose to get the energy in my legs to bounce. I thought the whole toe thing was tough, that's a piece of cake compared to trying to raise the energy with my awareness in both of my entire legs! It's a lot of focus and work! But I had more success today with it. I was feeling the the energy with my awareness in my legs today. I was actually feeling it before Martin would tell me to, so that is progress. He says I'm doing good, so that's cool. I think I am hard on myself, expecting to feel more, when what I am feeling is probably quite good. When I think about how much I was vibrating the week after Andrew crossed, this pales in comparison. I'm realizing I don't have to have that intense of feeling doing these exercises. Tomorrow I have some pages to read before I start Day 8. Gonna go and practice some more of raising energy with my awareness.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I remember part of my dreams last night. It seems I have a heck of a lot of them in just one night. Like I remember hanging out with Adam Richman from Man V Food. Don't remember the details tho. Probably him trying to get me to eat something ridiculously hard! Oops better rephrase that, trying to eat...well there's no way for me to write that and not have it sound dirty so I give up. I tell ya, I have a whole new respect for him after I nearly exploded at the Melting Pot! AND I shared my meal with Elatia! What can I say, I'm a wuss!
After that dream, I remember being at a person's house I know, but not the house she really lives in. We were trying to get out of the house to go get something to eat. Dunno why we had to try, like what was making it difficult. We felt a trembling of the house and wondered what the heck it was. An Earth quake perhaps? Nope! It was a moose running by. *What?* While startling to say the least, seeing this moose so close was magnificent! He was majestic! This house did have some woods around it so it wasn't like this moose came outta no where, that would be silly.
When we finally make the plaza where we wanted to eat, this chef/owner of the restaurant would not allow us in. Something to do w/a special function. Hmmm maybe something similar to Bill Clinton coming to the restaurant where my friend works? Only I was allowed into her restaurant & got to meet Bill. The funny thing about this chef/owner he was yelling at us in a foreign language and he was pissed we didn't understand him. As we are leaving because he kept shooing us away, I was making fun of him because he was being such a jackass and being one in a foreign language & expecting us to understand. Then I woke up. Yea, no epiphanies there!
Today I decided to do Day 7 again since I felt like I didn't quite get the hang of yesterday's exercises with the whole bouncie legs thingy. My legs don't actually bounce, I am suppose to get the energy in my legs to bounce. I thought the whole toe thing was tough, that's a piece of cake compared to trying to raise the energy with my awareness in both of my entire legs! It's a lot of focus and work! But I had more success today with it. I was feeling the the energy with my awareness in my legs today. I was actually feeling it before Martin would tell me to, so that is progress. He says I'm doing good, so that's cool. I think I am hard on myself, expecting to feel more, when what I am feeling is probably quite good. When I think about how much I was vibrating the week after Andrew crossed, this pales in comparison. I'm realizing I don't have to have that intense of feeling doing these exercises. Tomorrow I have some pages to read before I start Day 8. Gonna go and practice some more of raising energy with my awareness.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
DAY 7
As I mentioned in the comments on Day 6, this won't be in 90 days BUT I will be going thru all 90 days. It just might take 100 days or 120 days and the book says that is ok. They just don't want you jumping ahead. I won't do the exercises if I feel I am not able to focus on it properly and I just wasn't up for it yesterday (Tues). Had some mommy and daughter time yesterday instead.
I do remember a lot of dreams last night tho and know what they meant. Family issues and being left out. I saw pics of my sister, niece and great nephew in Germany last night which prompted these dreams. I haven't spoke to my mother since xmas eve 2007 and my sister since Mother's Day 2008. On a higher level I know it is best that I am left out. I don't need the agro and chaos that goes with the family. I honestly dont want it. I have Martin's family and that is just fine with me, I just wish they weren't so far away. On the lower level I hate missing out on watching my great nephew grow. I met him when he was an hour old on May 5th 2007 and he knocked my socks off! He smiled at me twice, looked into my eyes and there was this deep knowing of each other. It was wild! I also resent the fact that my family get to have a boy in their life when I lost mine! They get to replace my son with another boy. They get to ease their pain by having a young boy in their life. Why don't I get to have that? I don't run and hide from pain, I face it head on and heal it. SO yea, on a lower level, there's a bit of resentment with that. They get to be all dysfunctional, and what appears to be rewarded for it. Higher level knows better. But the lower level wants to know why they get to have this gapping hole that Andrew left behind, filled and we don't! Yet higher level knows there's so much more coming our way and we are happy enough now, happier than they are anyway. It's the whole Jekyll/Hyde thing again for me. At least I am acknowledging my shadow side in this situation and dealing with it.
Another part of my dream was the usual defending myself against my family, trying to wake them the hell up to who I really am! Tired of them making up who they think I am. Again, higher level KNOWS that ain't my job, lower level is frustrated with them for not getting it, and ALWAYS running from pain instead of healing it! And ALWAYS taking it out on me and making me the bad guy when it's their shit they won't look at! My mother is just carrying on the dysfunctional pattern of her mother and my sister is doing the same. Another part of the dream that I don't remember the details of, it's just a continuation of the family theme going on here. It was the feeling of me feeling inadequate and not good enough. Again, higher level knows that's a load of crap! It's good to get the lower level shit out so it can be looked at and healed. Something that my family is NOT familiar with. WOW I had a busy night! lol
Now onto the exercises...
No brain waving today, decided to take the option not to do it for a change. I did the usual body relaxation. I'm familiar with that one because I use that one in my prenatal exercise class that I taught in the 80's. The so called bouncie leg stimulation exercise wasn't bouncie at all. It was about getting sensation in my legs, like a sponge going up and down the inside of my legs like a pin ball. I am finding it more difficult to get the sensation with just my awareness on my legs. So I may have to spend a few days getting the hang of this exercise. We shall see. I will be working on it through out the day tomorrow.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I do remember a lot of dreams last night tho and know what they meant. Family issues and being left out. I saw pics of my sister, niece and great nephew in Germany last night which prompted these dreams. I haven't spoke to my mother since xmas eve 2007 and my sister since Mother's Day 2008. On a higher level I know it is best that I am left out. I don't need the agro and chaos that goes with the family. I honestly dont want it. I have Martin's family and that is just fine with me, I just wish they weren't so far away. On the lower level I hate missing out on watching my great nephew grow. I met him when he was an hour old on May 5th 2007 and he knocked my socks off! He smiled at me twice, looked into my eyes and there was this deep knowing of each other. It was wild! I also resent the fact that my family get to have a boy in their life when I lost mine! They get to replace my son with another boy. They get to ease their pain by having a young boy in their life. Why don't I get to have that? I don't run and hide from pain, I face it head on and heal it. SO yea, on a lower level, there's a bit of resentment with that. They get to be all dysfunctional, and what appears to be rewarded for it. Higher level knows better. But the lower level wants to know why they get to have this gapping hole that Andrew left behind, filled and we don't! Yet higher level knows there's so much more coming our way and we are happy enough now, happier than they are anyway. It's the whole Jekyll/Hyde thing again for me. At least I am acknowledging my shadow side in this situation and dealing with it.
Another part of my dream was the usual defending myself against my family, trying to wake them the hell up to who I really am! Tired of them making up who they think I am. Again, higher level KNOWS that ain't my job, lower level is frustrated with them for not getting it, and ALWAYS running from pain instead of healing it! And ALWAYS taking it out on me and making me the bad guy when it's their shit they won't look at! My mother is just carrying on the dysfunctional pattern of her mother and my sister is doing the same. Another part of the dream that I don't remember the details of, it's just a continuation of the family theme going on here. It was the feeling of me feeling inadequate and not good enough. Again, higher level knows that's a load of crap! It's good to get the lower level shit out so it can be looked at and healed. Something that my family is NOT familiar with. WOW I had a busy night! lol
Now onto the exercises...
No brain waving today, decided to take the option not to do it for a change. I did the usual body relaxation. I'm familiar with that one because I use that one in my prenatal exercise class that I taught in the 80's. The so called bouncie leg stimulation exercise wasn't bouncie at all. It was about getting sensation in my legs, like a sponge going up and down the inside of my legs like a pin ball. I am finding it more difficult to get the sensation with just my awareness on my legs. So I may have to spend a few days getting the hang of this exercise. We shall see. I will be working on it through out the day tomorrow.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Monday, September 28, 2009
DAY 6
So once again I have no dream to journal about. Don't remember a thing. :-( Bad astral travel student!
Today's exercises were tougher, after the brain wave generator, I had to create feeling with my awareness in my legs. First the front of my legs, then the outside of my legs, then the inside of my legs from my toes to my hip joints. It would appear I may have some blockage in those energy fields. Yay for me! More work! I need to focus more on my legs' energy fields. I have enough of a hard time focusing on, well EVERYTHING! Now I gotta focus on my legs with making a brushing feeling with my awareness. arrrgh! Andrew really is getting a smack from me when I meet up with him again! Making me work this hard to spend time with him again is total BS! But I suppose there will be other rewards in being able to travel to other dimensions as well, and if I can travel there with him? BONUS! Hmmm can you tell that patience is not one of my strong suits? I know, it's subtle. ;-)
Tomorrow, Day 7 involves bouncy legs, sounds like fun! Probably have to do it with my "awareness" tho :-/
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Today's exercises were tougher, after the brain wave generator, I had to create feeling with my awareness in my legs. First the front of my legs, then the outside of my legs, then the inside of my legs from my toes to my hip joints. It would appear I may have some blockage in those energy fields. Yay for me! More work! I need to focus more on my legs' energy fields. I have enough of a hard time focusing on, well EVERYTHING! Now I gotta focus on my legs with making a brushing feeling with my awareness. arrrgh! Andrew really is getting a smack from me when I meet up with him again! Making me work this hard to spend time with him again is total BS! But I suppose there will be other rewards in being able to travel to other dimensions as well, and if I can travel there with him? BONUS! Hmmm can you tell that patience is not one of my strong suits? I know, it's subtle. ;-)
Tomorrow, Day 7 involves bouncy legs, sounds like fun! Probably have to do it with my "awareness" tho :-/
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Day 5
Alrighty then, I got no dreams to write about, didnt remember a thing other than I went somewhere and did something. Didn't even remember a few key words to write down so I would remember. Oh well, such is life, or sleep, or whatever, it is what it is I suppose.
I did the exercises late tonight at 11p.m. to shake it up a bit. Ok, I was busy harvesting crops on FarmVille and questing on School of Magic on Face Book and watching the Food Network. BUT I also went grocery shopping and on the treadmill earlier. Hey. it's Sunday, it's a kinda goofing around kind of day. *she says in her defense your Honor*
I did the optional brain wave generator, and during it I did the tensing and releasing of my body, then the breathing exercises, plus focusing on deep relaxation. I figured why not kill 2 or 3 birds with the one generator. Right? During the day I would work on the toe stimulation to see if I could get the sensation in my toes with just my awareness, and I could. Nothing Earth shattering vibration wise, but I would feel something.
As Martin would read to me from the book on what to do, my feet would react before he said anything, cool huh? It's like my feet are psychic or something! :-) So tonight when I go to bed, I will continue with the feet stimulation by my awareness exercises to strengthen that, muscle? Not sure what to call it.
It's All Good!
I did the exercises late tonight at 11p.m. to shake it up a bit. Ok, I was busy harvesting crops on FarmVille and questing on School of Magic on Face Book and watching the Food Network. BUT I also went grocery shopping and on the treadmill earlier. Hey. it's Sunday, it's a kinda goofing around kind of day. *she says in her defense your Honor*
I did the optional brain wave generator, and during it I did the tensing and releasing of my body, then the breathing exercises, plus focusing on deep relaxation. I figured why not kill 2 or 3 birds with the one generator. Right? During the day I would work on the toe stimulation to see if I could get the sensation in my toes with just my awareness, and I could. Nothing Earth shattering vibration wise, but I would feel something.
As Martin would read to me from the book on what to do, my feet would react before he said anything, cool huh? It's like my feet are psychic or something! :-) So tonight when I go to bed, I will continue with the feet stimulation by my awareness exercises to strengthen that, muscle? Not sure what to call it.
It's All Good!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
DAY 4
Ok, Ok, I know I skipped a day. I'll make up for it. I didn't have a dream to report yesterday, and was very tired and not up for the exercises. BUT I'm back today! :-D
Last night's dreams were, well, let's just say interesting because there were several of them. I didn't remember one of them until I was at Good Year Tires getting the oil changed in my car, and was told I needed back brakes. I had a dream last night that I was driving and hit the breaks and there were none. It's the first time I had a dream letting me know something ahead of time.
Another dream I was having was with one of my comedian friends that I picked to be a star when I first saw her at the Ca Funniest Female Finale in 2006, and she's on her way to stardom! I don't remember much of that dream other than going to her shows and hanging with her.
The other dream there was a few of us at our house, but not the house I live in now. I was trying to lock up the house as we were going to a gig but got distracted with animals. We had, now get this, 2 turkeys as pets! WTF?? I was even hugging one of them really loving on it! Abuh? Then as I went outside there was a HUGE tarannucula on a rock. I am afraid of spiders. Even so, this one was cool looking becuase it was like a pale, neon green with other pretty neon colors. Martin is the spider person so I made him move it out of our yard. I wanted to stomp on him (the spider, not Martin) but was having this whole respecting nature crap, feeling. The house we were in was an older quirky home, kinda small. Must represent something I'm sure. That's about all I remember.
Now onto the exercises. I did the brain wave generator for 20 mins and the time flew, I couldn't believe how fast the 20 mins went. I worked on relaxing my body and affirming what I want, during that time. I was back to the poogies ie toes exercises again tonight. It is a pain the ass doing it. I have to try and create feeling in my individual toes with my awareness! Sound easy? It's not! I'm even trying to do it as I type now. These are exercises I will be working on throughout the day so I can hopefully get the hang of this quicker. I do get a very subtle feeling in my toes during it and that is a good start. I guess I was expecting like major vibrations going on, but didn't get that. I want to hug my son so bad, I will do whatever it takes! So if I have to sit here and create feeling in my toes with my awareness, then gosh darnit that's what I'm going to do!
While I was doing the contracting muscles and releasing exercises to strengthen body awareness, we heard a noise behind Andrew's recliner where I was sitting and thought it was Merlin, it was not. We don't know what it was, so that was interesting.
That's all I got for now.
It's All Good!
Last night's dreams were, well, let's just say interesting because there were several of them. I didn't remember one of them until I was at Good Year Tires getting the oil changed in my car, and was told I needed back brakes. I had a dream last night that I was driving and hit the breaks and there were none. It's the first time I had a dream letting me know something ahead of time.
Another dream I was having was with one of my comedian friends that I picked to be a star when I first saw her at the Ca Funniest Female Finale in 2006, and she's on her way to stardom! I don't remember much of that dream other than going to her shows and hanging with her.
The other dream there was a few of us at our house, but not the house I live in now. I was trying to lock up the house as we were going to a gig but got distracted with animals. We had, now get this, 2 turkeys as pets! WTF?? I was even hugging one of them really loving on it! Abuh? Then as I went outside there was a HUGE tarannucula on a rock. I am afraid of spiders. Even so, this one was cool looking becuase it was like a pale, neon green with other pretty neon colors. Martin is the spider person so I made him move it out of our yard. I wanted to stomp on him (the spider, not Martin) but was having this whole respecting nature crap, feeling. The house we were in was an older quirky home, kinda small. Must represent something I'm sure. That's about all I remember.
Now onto the exercises. I did the brain wave generator for 20 mins and the time flew, I couldn't believe how fast the 20 mins went. I worked on relaxing my body and affirming what I want, during that time. I was back to the poogies ie toes exercises again tonight. It is a pain the ass doing it. I have to try and create feeling in my individual toes with my awareness! Sound easy? It's not! I'm even trying to do it as I type now. These are exercises I will be working on throughout the day so I can hopefully get the hang of this quicker. I do get a very subtle feeling in my toes during it and that is a good start. I guess I was expecting like major vibrations going on, but didn't get that. I want to hug my son so bad, I will do whatever it takes! So if I have to sit here and create feeling in my toes with my awareness, then gosh darnit that's what I'm going to do!
While I was doing the contracting muscles and releasing exercises to strengthen body awareness, we heard a noise behind Andrew's recliner where I was sitting and thought it was Merlin, it was not. We don't know what it was, so that was interesting.
That's all I got for now.
It's All Good!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
DAY 3
Dream Journal first since it's more interesting (?) than the exercises I did today. :-/ The book says writing your dreams is very important because it will help you remember your astral traveling sessions easier. You condition yourself to remember by writing them down.
I had several dreams since I had to get up at 6:50am to get Daniel off to school. SO the dream I had prior to that involved Gordan Ramsey at a culinary school I was at, which is a laugh since I'm not fond of cooking & in no way would you find me at a culinary anything! We were in a grocery store shopping for produce for a white sauce we had to make that used several different types of onions. Ramsey, in his infamous rants, went on about how we were forgetting the white onions which were the most important ingredient.
Jeremy is here now and said anything to do with the kitchen is about feeding yourself spiritually and nurturing your soul, which totally makes sense. It being a culinary school is about learning and what am I doing?? ;-)
Now the 2nd one I was in a college type atmosphere, there's that learning again. There was a kiosk in this part pf the college with this quirky old lady working it. She had expensive college books dirt cheap among other off beat items. Then I was at a couples' house I knew years ago, so I thought that was weird. It was even weirder that the husband went off to a secret room in his house to get high with his son or something. Knowing this couple, soooo not him. It was just weird. BUT it gets weirder.
Then I was in another scene with beauty pageant queens who were insisting that I get my lips tattooed with color.Two of them were trying to convince me that their color was better for me. Next thing I know my lips are split/cut into sections, (weird!) I feel how swollen my lips are, like I was wearing those big, red, wax lips or looked like those crazy ass bitches that get way too much plastic surgery. Then I feel the needle of the tattooing on my lips. I don't remember much of anything after that. Weird huh?? I get flashes of being in a huge house but no details.
As for today's exercises, pretty uneventful. I did the brain wave generator, it sounds so sci-fi don't it? All Oooooooo boogity boogity. I did the body relaxation, and breathing exercises. I had some success with the stimulation exercises.Not near as exciting as it might sound. While mild sensations, I at least had something happen. I worked with stimulating my thumbs and as Andrew called them my foot thumbs, better known as big toes. :-D In the exercises, you have to try and stimulate the energy centers of these areas with your mind so you can become aware of these energy centers. I did pretty good. So until next time...
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I had several dreams since I had to get up at 6:50am to get Daniel off to school. SO the dream I had prior to that involved Gordan Ramsey at a culinary school I was at, which is a laugh since I'm not fond of cooking & in no way would you find me at a culinary anything! We were in a grocery store shopping for produce for a white sauce we had to make that used several different types of onions. Ramsey, in his infamous rants, went on about how we were forgetting the white onions which were the most important ingredient.
Jeremy is here now and said anything to do with the kitchen is about feeding yourself spiritually and nurturing your soul, which totally makes sense. It being a culinary school is about learning and what am I doing?? ;-)
Now the 2nd one I was in a college type atmosphere, there's that learning again. There was a kiosk in this part pf the college with this quirky old lady working it. She had expensive college books dirt cheap among other off beat items. Then I was at a couples' house I knew years ago, so I thought that was weird. It was even weirder that the husband went off to a secret room in his house to get high with his son or something. Knowing this couple, soooo not him. It was just weird. BUT it gets weirder.
Then I was in another scene with beauty pageant queens who were insisting that I get my lips tattooed with color.Two of them were trying to convince me that their color was better for me. Next thing I know my lips are split/cut into sections, (weird!) I feel how swollen my lips are, like I was wearing those big, red, wax lips or looked like those crazy ass bitches that get way too much plastic surgery. Then I feel the needle of the tattooing on my lips. I don't remember much of anything after that. Weird huh?? I get flashes of being in a huge house but no details.
As for today's exercises, pretty uneventful. I did the brain wave generator, it sounds so sci-fi don't it? All Oooooooo boogity boogity. I did the body relaxation, and breathing exercises. I had some success with the stimulation exercises.Not near as exciting as it might sound. While mild sensations, I at least had something happen. I worked with stimulating my thumbs and as Andrew called them my foot thumbs, better known as big toes. :-D In the exercises, you have to try and stimulate the energy centers of these areas with your mind so you can become aware of these energy centers. I did pretty good. So until next time...
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
DAY 2
Well, I didn't have the galloping horses today, so I may not be so gung ho on taking up horse back riding now. Un-benounced to me, Martin can choose what brain wave generator he wants to use on me. I had no idea that there was even a choice of brain wave generator thingys, but apparently there is. It better not make me his love slave or anything or those authors are gonna hear from me!
At first I was finding these energy body stimulation exercises a pain in the ass, (yea, I know, it's only day 2) but today it was kinda cool. Probably because I didn't need a back scratcher to reach my freakin toe or another awkward place to reach. Today it was all about the thumb joint, I can reach that alls by myself! You have to so a circular motion on the thumb joint to create a tingling sensation, then try to recreate it with your mind, NOT EASY! But today I have to say it worked! I was able to do it! I was surprised. These exercises are to stimulate the energy body for separation. If it weren't for Martin talking me through it, I'm not sure I could keep this up. Like I have mentioned before, losing a child helps you lose your focus.
While listening to the brain wave generator, I could feel energy swirling in the palms of my hands, I love that feeling. I use to feel it very strongly when I would go to sleep at the Clown House while at All Children's. I will feel it now if I tune into it as I try to fall asleep.
Man! There is a lot to this conscious astral traveling! We do it every night, we just don't remember it. Well, if I can astral travel in 90 days and meet up with my son, then these exercises will all be worth it!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
At first I was finding these energy body stimulation exercises a pain in the ass, (yea, I know, it's only day 2) but today it was kinda cool. Probably because I didn't need a back scratcher to reach my freakin toe or another awkward place to reach. Today it was all about the thumb joint, I can reach that alls by myself! You have to so a circular motion on the thumb joint to create a tingling sensation, then try to recreate it with your mind, NOT EASY! But today I have to say it worked! I was able to do it! I was surprised. These exercises are to stimulate the energy body for separation. If it weren't for Martin talking me through it, I'm not sure I could keep this up. Like I have mentioned before, losing a child helps you lose your focus.
While listening to the brain wave generator, I could feel energy swirling in the palms of my hands, I love that feeling. I use to feel it very strongly when I would go to sleep at the Clown House while at All Children's. I will feel it now if I tune into it as I try to fall asleep.
Man! There is a lot to this conscious astral traveling! We do it every night, we just don't remember it. Well, if I can astral travel in 90 days and meet up with my son, then these exercises will all be worth it!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
DAY 1
Ok, I've started the 90 plan to astral traveling! Martin is my coach to make sure I stay on track. He's an avid astral traveler so he'll be a good coach...I think. ;-)
I listened to the optional brain wave generator because I wanna be on the fast track to astral traveling. Not sure I get, what sounds like a horse galloping in a circle, is all about. Glad I have no fear of horses or that would be tough. I may want to take up horse back riding now though!
The body tingling exercise is interesting. It's hard to recreate the feeling with your mind because once I'm relaxed I don't even feel my body and isn't that the goal? I guess we'll see.
Part of me (we all know which part that is) is still pissed I have to work so hard to see my son! I remember when all I had to do was walk past his room and see him at his computer twirling his hair into a little horn while watching John Denver videos on YouTube. All I had to do was walk in there and kiss him and give him a hug. Now I have to practice these exercises and get the hang of leaving my body to spend time with him. Hardly seems fair.WTF?
Now, my other side, the non mama gene side, whatever that is called, sees how by having Andrew on the Other Side forces me to raise my vibration, and see beyond the illusion that is the 3rd dimension. It is forcing me to grow. Forcing me to remember what is real. Forcing me to remember who I really am. Blah blah blah. Oops, mama gene again.
We'll see what day 2 brings. Day 1 was kinda boring. Off to read a supplemental book on OBEs now, it's part of the assignment. Hopefully I'll have some OBE symptoms tonight.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I listened to the optional brain wave generator because I wanna be on the fast track to astral traveling. Not sure I get, what sounds like a horse galloping in a circle, is all about. Glad I have no fear of horses or that would be tough. I may want to take up horse back riding now though!
The body tingling exercise is interesting. It's hard to recreate the feeling with your mind because once I'm relaxed I don't even feel my body and isn't that the goal? I guess we'll see.
Part of me (we all know which part that is) is still pissed I have to work so hard to see my son! I remember when all I had to do was walk past his room and see him at his computer twirling his hair into a little horn while watching John Denver videos on YouTube. All I had to do was walk in there and kiss him and give him a hug. Now I have to practice these exercises and get the hang of leaving my body to spend time with him. Hardly seems fair.WTF?
Now, my other side, the non mama gene side, whatever that is called, sees how by having Andrew on the Other Side forces me to raise my vibration, and see beyond the illusion that is the 3rd dimension. It is forcing me to grow. Forcing me to remember what is real. Forcing me to remember who I really am. Blah blah blah. Oops, mama gene again.
We'll see what day 2 brings. Day 1 was kinda boring. Off to read a supplemental book on OBEs now, it's part of the assignment. Hopefully I'll have some OBE symptoms tonight.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Counting It Down!
Counting down the days until I start my 90 day to astral travel program! Four more sleeps! :-0 I figure if I count it down, I'll create some excitement for myself. I'm excited and nervous. Excited at the prospect of having and OBE and astral traveling to see Andrew and spending time with him. Also exploring more dimensions. Maybe kick back at the ole castle for a bit to re-energize my self and remember more of who I really am. Excited at being a spiritual explorer. The possibilities are endless!
Then I'm nervous because what if I don't get it? X-0 What if I drop the ball on it yet again? Yada, yada, yada, blah, blah blah. Typical ego talk. I will be spending the weekend energetically and mentally preparing myself, energetically preparing Andrew's room. Visualizing me succeeding at this. Giving myself a pep talk that I can see this through and be SUCCESSFUL at it. SO that is what I will be doing this weekend. I may even practice a few of the exercises to get a feel for it.
I will also be blogging on here my dream journal. I'm putting it all here baby!
No matter what, Day 1 begins on Monday Sept 21, 2009!
Then I'm nervous because what if I don't get it? X-0 What if I drop the ball on it yet again? Yada, yada, yada, blah, blah blah. Typical ego talk. I will be spending the weekend energetically and mentally preparing myself, energetically preparing Andrew's room. Visualizing me succeeding at this. Giving myself a pep talk that I can see this through and be SUCCESSFUL at it. SO that is what I will be doing this weekend. I may even practice a few of the exercises to get a feel for it.
I will also be blogging on here my dream journal. I'm putting it all here baby!
No matter what, Day 1 begins on Monday Sept 21, 2009!
Friday, September 11, 2009
MASTERING ASTRAL TRAVEL IN 90 DAYS!
Well, that's my goal anyways!
Ever since my son Andrew made his transition to the Other Side, I have been wanting to consciously astral travel to meet up with him. Martin, my husband, does it all of the time which is why he is so good at what he does, a professional medium. He has been astral traveling long before Andrew left here. For those that may not know, I shouldn't assume only those that know me are reading this, my son Andrew crossed on Oct 22, 2007 at 16yo, 4 months after a rare leukemia diagnosis. For more info on our journey w/him through all of this, go to http://www.healive.org it's ALL there on my blog. We are still trying to find our way back from this devastating event.
So I decided in order to motivate me into sticking with learning to consciosly astral travel, I would blog about it. There is a book that has a 90 plan to learn how to astral travel. There are exercises to do everyday. I have started it then quit. I tried on our forum on http://www.healive.org to get an astral travel group started, but again, I didn't stick to it. You see, when you lose a child, it's hard to stay focused on anything for any length of time. We are coming up on the 2nd anniversary of Andrew's transition so I think I may be in a slightly better place to try again. And by announcing it here and promising to blog about it, well, it makes me accountable.
I have been reading books on astral traveling these past 2 yrs. It is so fascinating! The adventures and knowledge people have gained through astral travel is astounding. One author calls astral travelers spiritual explorers, which they are. It is our birth right to be able to do so, but because of religious dogmas & fear we forget how to consciously do it. We do it every night! We just don't remember that we do,which would explain dejevu. And when people do remember an out of body experience, OBE, it usually scares the hell outta them because they don't understand it.
The symptoms of an OBE can be quite scary if you don't now what is going on. I didn't really know what the symptoms were so when I was vibrating so much the week after Andrew left when I laid down, I didn't realize I was on the brink of an OBE. If I had of known I woulda worked harder on having an OBE instead of thinking "Wow this feels cool! Feels like I'm vibrating off the bed!" When actually I was on the verge vibrating out of my body! I even blogged about how much I was vibrating. I experienced it for the next few months after Andrew left. It was the most intense the week after though.
As I was reading more about astral traveling, I would practice it at night and definitely felt the vibration and got the symptoms of an OBE which then leads to astral travel if you choose. What stopped me is that I would get all excited about it and stopped the process or I'd fall asleep which is quite normal.
Did you ever feel like someone was sitting on your chest upon waking? Like you felt paralyzed? Well, that my friends is re-entry into your body! When your mind woke up before your body.OR ever wake up with uncontrollable chills? Again, re-entry.
SO when am I starting this little adventure? When I get my house back to myself again so probably in a week or so. We have a friend Tammy and her 2 kids, Daniel and Cassie stayin w/us at the moment. So that's my excuse anyway! ;-) I'll be spending this time mentally prepping myself so I will stick to it this time. Knowing I have to report back here will help too. Making a commitment to blog every step and every day I know will make me stick to it the whole 90 days. You'd think the reward would be enough, seeing my son, but for what ever reason, it hasn't been. Maybe because it has seemed like too much work. Remember, the lack of focus?
So for those that will be following me, thank you! I hope to take you on a fun & enlightening adventure!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Ever since my son Andrew made his transition to the Other Side, I have been wanting to consciously astral travel to meet up with him. Martin, my husband, does it all of the time which is why he is so good at what he does, a professional medium. He has been astral traveling long before Andrew left here. For those that may not know, I shouldn't assume only those that know me are reading this, my son Andrew crossed on Oct 22, 2007 at 16yo, 4 months after a rare leukemia diagnosis. For more info on our journey w/him through all of this, go to http://www.healive.org it's ALL there on my blog. We are still trying to find our way back from this devastating event.
So I decided in order to motivate me into sticking with learning to consciosly astral travel, I would blog about it. There is a book that has a 90 plan to learn how to astral travel. There are exercises to do everyday. I have started it then quit. I tried on our forum on http://www.healive.org to get an astral travel group started, but again, I didn't stick to it. You see, when you lose a child, it's hard to stay focused on anything for any length of time. We are coming up on the 2nd anniversary of Andrew's transition so I think I may be in a slightly better place to try again. And by announcing it here and promising to blog about it, well, it makes me accountable.
I have been reading books on astral traveling these past 2 yrs. It is so fascinating! The adventures and knowledge people have gained through astral travel is astounding. One author calls astral travelers spiritual explorers, which they are. It is our birth right to be able to do so, but because of religious dogmas & fear we forget how to consciously do it. We do it every night! We just don't remember that we do,which would explain dejevu. And when people do remember an out of body experience, OBE, it usually scares the hell outta them because they don't understand it.
The symptoms of an OBE can be quite scary if you don't now what is going on. I didn't really know what the symptoms were so when I was vibrating so much the week after Andrew left when I laid down, I didn't realize I was on the brink of an OBE. If I had of known I woulda worked harder on having an OBE instead of thinking "Wow this feels cool! Feels like I'm vibrating off the bed!" When actually I was on the verge vibrating out of my body! I even blogged about how much I was vibrating. I experienced it for the next few months after Andrew left. It was the most intense the week after though.
As I was reading more about astral traveling, I would practice it at night and definitely felt the vibration and got the symptoms of an OBE which then leads to astral travel if you choose. What stopped me is that I would get all excited about it and stopped the process or I'd fall asleep which is quite normal.
Did you ever feel like someone was sitting on your chest upon waking? Like you felt paralyzed? Well, that my friends is re-entry into your body! When your mind woke up before your body.OR ever wake up with uncontrollable chills? Again, re-entry.
SO when am I starting this little adventure? When I get my house back to myself again so probably in a week or so. We have a friend Tammy and her 2 kids, Daniel and Cassie stayin w/us at the moment. So that's my excuse anyway! ;-) I'll be spending this time mentally prepping myself so I will stick to it this time. Knowing I have to report back here will help too. Making a commitment to blog every step and every day I know will make me stick to it the whole 90 days. You'd think the reward would be enough, seeing my son, but for what ever reason, it hasn't been. Maybe because it has seemed like too much work. Remember, the lack of focus?
So for those that will be following me, thank you! I hope to take you on a fun & enlightening adventure!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
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