That's pretty much what I've been feeling when I purposely work on the Day 17's exercises in Andrew's room and when I'm going to sleep (when I remember). I am getting all the symptoms of an OBE but have yet to have one consciously. I guess it's all about CONSISTENT practice.
I was having a very firm talking to with myself today about being more consistent with the astral travel exercises. I let myself know that I meant it! That I needed to be more consistent! I told myself that I need to commit to doing the exercises EVERYDAY, no excuses, for at least a week to really start seeing some REAL results. I wanted to make threats to myself, but what's the point?
I've been reading the book "Astral Travel for Beginners" and while the "Astral Dynamics" book can do my head in at times, this one is toooooo basic. There's more history in it than real technique. I do find the history fascinating but I'm half way through it and there's no real OBE technique info. Only, get into deep meditation and off you go! Really? That's it? Meditate and off you go? It's funny to see the difference between the 2 books. One is so detailed and scientific and the other so simplified. I have to find somewhere in the middle.
Since I had this little "Come to Jesus" talk today with myself, I'm going to be reading the "Mastering Astral Travel in 90 Days" AND "Astral Dynamics" books EVERYDAY! I don't have to read a crap load of chapters, just enough to keep me motivated. You'd think the reward, seeing my son would be enough, an dyet it is not, WTF?! I really need to follow the exercises more strictly, but I think if I do the meditation part with the sponging action, bouncy ball, breathing, and mind clearing, I should be good to go.
You'd think that spending time with my son would be motivation enough, but I guess I kinda resent how much work it takes just to spend some time with my son now. It shouldn't have to be this must work! I just want to walk into his room and hug him like I use to do. I still haven't wrapped my head around the fact that he isn't on this dimension anymore. The grief process is a brutal one fo sho! I don't know what my problem is. I do know I am so drained on every level from these past 3 years of trauma of nearly losing one child and actually losing the other, so my focus is off. But I gotta decide what do I want more? Spend time with Andrew on the astral plane or just sit around and grieve about him? The first makes more sense, there are so many more benefits from nailing astral travel. SO I gotta just suck it up and do these exercises EVERYDAY for at least a week. Start with a week commitment and go from there is what I figure is doable. That's the plan anyway. Keeping fingers and eyes crossed I stick to it!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
VERY INTERESTING
*in my best Artie Johnson voice from Laugh In* WOW! Did I just date myself! :-D
I'm taking a side bar on this post. This isn't about me and my astral traveling exercises. Instead it's about some info about my hubby and his astral traveling experiences.
I found out something very interesting recently, hence the title. Martin and I have been talking a lot about astral traveling. Martin is the master at leaving his body at any given moment, which is why we don’t let him drive that often.
He can even talk while he is having an OBE! Cool huh? So the other night before we go to sleep, we are lying in bed talking about astral traveling. Next thing he says is “I’m out of body now. I’m standing outside a chain link fence, standing in water up to my knees. I see black smoke and there is a horrible stench in the air.” I ask where he is and replies, “I don’t know.” Without thinking, I say “it sounds to me like you are in Haiti.” He said, “You're right! That’s where I am!” I asked, like it was normal for him to be standing knee deep in water in Haiti at bedtime, “why are you there?” He said, “to help with healing energy and to help children that have crossed to find their way.” How wild is that??!! A. VERY!
But that’s not even the interesting part! Well not to me anyway. What I found interesting is, is that Martin is working on the same goal as I am! With all the OBE’s, astral traveling, and seeing Andrew that Martin has done, he has yet to hug him! I KNOW! Wild huh? I couldn’t believe it! How is that even possible?! How can he leave his body so easily and freely, see Andrew as solid as when he was here, and Martin not hug him???? Boggles my freakin mind!
It makes me a little nervous because if “Psychic Boy, Super Natural Hero” hasn’t been able to hug and spend time with Andrew etherically physical, (I keep making up words and terms) meaning, it feeling like it did when Andrew was on this dimension, what are my odds then? I know it can be done, I’m just stunned that Martin hasn’t done it yet.
Martin spends so much time in the ethers, I think it just doesn’t matter to him how he connects to Andrew, just as long as he has a connection with him. He did say he is wanting to hug Muck and have that physical contact, but I guess with everything he has going on, and being a Libra, he figures it will happen when it’s suppose to. Me being a Leo, I want it NOW!
I know it will happen all in good time and the 3 of us will be together like old days in the new way.
IT’S ALL GOOD!
I'm taking a side bar on this post. This isn't about me and my astral traveling exercises. Instead it's about some info about my hubby and his astral traveling experiences.
I found out something very interesting recently, hence the title. Martin and I have been talking a lot about astral traveling. Martin is the master at leaving his body at any given moment, which is why we don’t let him drive that often.
He can even talk while he is having an OBE! Cool huh? So the other night before we go to sleep, we are lying in bed talking about astral traveling. Next thing he says is “I’m out of body now. I’m standing outside a chain link fence, standing in water up to my knees. I see black smoke and there is a horrible stench in the air.” I ask where he is and replies, “I don’t know.” Without thinking, I say “it sounds to me like you are in Haiti.” He said, “You're right! That’s where I am!” I asked, like it was normal for him to be standing knee deep in water in Haiti at bedtime, “why are you there?” He said, “to help with healing energy and to help children that have crossed to find their way.” How wild is that??!! A. VERY!
But that’s not even the interesting part! Well not to me anyway. What I found interesting is, is that Martin is working on the same goal as I am! With all the OBE’s, astral traveling, and seeing Andrew that Martin has done, he has yet to hug him! I KNOW! Wild huh? I couldn’t believe it! How is that even possible?! How can he leave his body so easily and freely, see Andrew as solid as when he was here, and Martin not hug him???? Boggles my freakin mind!
It makes me a little nervous because if “Psychic Boy, Super Natural Hero” hasn’t been able to hug and spend time with Andrew etherically physical, (I keep making up words and terms) meaning, it feeling like it did when Andrew was on this dimension, what are my odds then? I know it can be done, I’m just stunned that Martin hasn’t done it yet.
Martin spends so much time in the ethers, I think it just doesn’t matter to him how he connects to Andrew, just as long as he has a connection with him. He did say he is wanting to hug Muck and have that physical contact, but I guess with everything he has going on, and being a Libra, he figures it will happen when it’s suppose to. Me being a Leo, I want it NOW!
I know it will happen all in good time and the 3 of us will be together like old days in the new way.
IT’S ALL GOOD!
Friday, January 22, 2010
RED MARKS THE SPOT!
I had an interesting dream last night. While the sequence of it was weird, like being late for my job in Vegas(?), I was flying in it. I actually had some kind of thing I used to fly with. Don't remember exactly what it looked like, but it was about the size of an umbrella. I wasn't flying outside but inside a building waiting in line for a train or bus to get to Vegas. It was a weird dream, but I did like the flying part of it, that was cool. It wasn't until later today I realized that was a great sign! Flying dreams are usually a precursor to OBE's if you play your cards right!
While at the grocery store today, Martin noticed that I had a red circle right on my 3rd eye! I didn't believe it was that noticeable so he told me to take out my mirror to look at it. I did and sure enough I had a red circle on my 3rd eye! WTF? It looked like someone pushed me with their finger there r something. I know Andrew does a lot of work on my 3rd eye and crown chakra but to have a red mark on my 3rd eye? Interesting. I guess we'll see soon enough if it means anything.
I FINALLY got my "Astral Travel for Beginners" book! YAY! About freaking time, it only took 3 weeks. Oh I will be rating them on Amazon! I was reading the book while waiting in the car for Martin on a few errands before we went to the grocery store. Dunno if that has anything to do with my red mark or not.
While I may not do the exercises everyday with the brain wave generator, I plan on reading everyday from one of my astral traveling books. I also am working on the exercises in the 90 plan as I fall asleep and when I wake up. I work on the relaxation, the sponging action and bouncy ball exercises. I do feel the vibration and floating, but I fall asleep, which I don't mind since sleep has eluded me a lot during the past 2 1/2 yrs.
Today I did do Day 17 again. The sensations are getting more intense like before. I feel parts of my energy body loosening up. I didn't even hear Martin come into the room today. That's never happened before. I should be ready to move to Day 18 soon!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
While at the grocery store today, Martin noticed that I had a red circle right on my 3rd eye! I didn't believe it was that noticeable so he told me to take out my mirror to look at it. I did and sure enough I had a red circle on my 3rd eye! WTF? It looked like someone pushed me with their finger there r something. I know Andrew does a lot of work on my 3rd eye and crown chakra but to have a red mark on my 3rd eye? Interesting. I guess we'll see soon enough if it means anything.
I FINALLY got my "Astral Travel for Beginners" book! YAY! About freaking time, it only took 3 weeks. Oh I will be rating them on Amazon! I was reading the book while waiting in the car for Martin on a few errands before we went to the grocery store. Dunno if that has anything to do with my red mark or not.
While I may not do the exercises everyday with the brain wave generator, I plan on reading everyday from one of my astral traveling books. I also am working on the exercises in the 90 plan as I fall asleep and when I wake up. I work on the relaxation, the sponging action and bouncy ball exercises. I do feel the vibration and floating, but I fall asleep, which I don't mind since sleep has eluded me a lot during the past 2 1/2 yrs.
Today I did do Day 17 again. The sensations are getting more intense like before. I feel parts of my energy body loosening up. I didn't even hear Martin come into the room today. That's never happened before. I should be ready to move to Day 18 soon!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Getting in the Swing Again!
I did Day 17's exercises again yesterday and I am starting to get the sensations again like I use to. I was excited about that. I had the sensation that my legs were swaying side to side, but I knew that they were not. I believe it was my energy legs I felt separating from my physical body. It also felt like my right had was turned on it's side, which I know it was actually palm down. Again, I believe it was my energy hand separating. SO these are exciting signs of an OBE!
The brain wave generator is getting more interesting. It has different tones in it and it seems to help get me into that trance like state. I notice that it's kind of interesting tuning into your body and becoming aware of each part of it. It helps keep my mind better focusED, but I still need to work on calming the mind chatter even better. I'm getting there. It's all about practice, practice, practice! AND consistency. Still working on that too.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
The brain wave generator is getting more interesting. It has different tones in it and it seems to help get me into that trance like state. I notice that it's kind of interesting tuning into your body and becoming aware of each part of it. It helps keep my mind better focusED, but I still need to work on calming the mind chatter even better. I'm getting there. It's all about practice, practice, practice! AND consistency. Still working on that too.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
INTERESTING
While I haven't been doing the exercises like I have wanted, life has really been getting in the way, I've been having interesting sensations when I go to bed. And no, it's not because of my husband, that would be a whole other blog with a password...and monthly fee! ;-)
Anyway, I've been having the sensation like I was floating out of my body but I don't believe I was. I think it was more of a symptom of having an OBE. I sometimes get the vibrating along with it. I think I get so excited with anticipation, that I excite myself right out of having an OBE. DAMMIT!
Even though I'm not doing the exercises according to the book, I do work on it when I'm in bed. I figure even doing that between doing the full day's exercises is better than nothing. I think it is programming my subconscious. It's a theory of mine anyway. I keep affirming that I easily leave my body and spend time with Andrew.
I'm afraid that's all I got for right now. Still waiting on my "Astral Travel for Beginners" book from a vendor on Amazon. Oh I will be rating these guys as SLOWWWWWWWWWW! If I had of known they were this slow I woulda just ordered the damn book straight from Amazon!
It's All Good!
Anyway, I've been having the sensation like I was floating out of my body but I don't believe I was. I think it was more of a symptom of having an OBE. I sometimes get the vibrating along with it. I think I get so excited with anticipation, that I excite myself right out of having an OBE. DAMMIT!
Even though I'm not doing the exercises according to the book, I do work on it when I'm in bed. I figure even doing that between doing the full day's exercises is better than nothing. I think it is programming my subconscious. It's a theory of mine anyway. I keep affirming that I easily leave my body and spend time with Andrew.
I'm afraid that's all I got for right now. Still waiting on my "Astral Travel for Beginners" book from a vendor on Amazon. Oh I will be rating these guys as SLOWWWWWWWWWW! If I had of known they were this slow I woulda just ordered the damn book straight from Amazon!
It's All Good!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Day 17 again
Well, it looks like I'm gonna be on Day 17 for a few days. Geeeez! There's a lot of exercises to do! Sponging energy, raising energy, bouncing energy, breathing clouds or something, staring at numbers (which I didn't do) etc. I am finding I am not feeling the energy like I was with all the energy exercises. I didn't get discouraged. I just continued to visualize what I wanted to feel. I figured eventually I'll feel it if I keep visualizing it. I just keep my eye on the ball, my goal, if you will, which is seeing my son again. It sucks that this is what I have to do now to spend time with him. I preferred it when all I had to do was just walk into his room and give him a hug. BUT I guess it's better than not having any options at all, since he had to move on before us.
I don't know if I'm not feelin as much because I'm wearing more clothes than usual and it is making it difficult to feel the energy or not. Not that I do these exercises naked or anything mind you, but I do wear lighter clothes since I live in FLA. But it's been really cold here for nearly 2 weeks. My poor wee digits have been freezing! I could barely feel the energy in my hands. Although I did feel some pressure in a few of my finger nails. Like someone was pressing on them, that was interesting. Or maybe I'm having difficulty feeling the energy because I haven't done the exercises in a few months is the issue. Who knows. All I know is, failure is NOT an option! I want to hold my son again too much to give up! And this is the only way I can do it...well, that or dying. Not that I'm opposed to the latter but I can't cont on it happening soon enough. Astral traveling is probably quicker.
Today we put on a different brain wave generator. That was interesting, beside the usual white noise, there was some extra sounds in it, a kind of pulsing. I guess it is doin something to my brain waves, generating something with any luck. That's my hope anyway.
My intent is to do the exercises again tomorrow, but we have a few things going on so it might not be possible. I think I am going to work on the sponging exercise when I go to bed. If nothing else, it helps me fall asleep. Plus the sensation of it on my feet feels good when I can actually do it. I think I am also going to read a little from Astral Dynamics. It's a big enough book that I know I'll find a chapter that doesn't do my loaf in! Loaf; and Irish term for head.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I don't know if I'm not feelin as much because I'm wearing more clothes than usual and it is making it difficult to feel the energy or not. Not that I do these exercises naked or anything mind you, but I do wear lighter clothes since I live in FLA. But it's been really cold here for nearly 2 weeks. My poor wee digits have been freezing! I could barely feel the energy in my hands. Although I did feel some pressure in a few of my finger nails. Like someone was pressing on them, that was interesting. Or maybe I'm having difficulty feeling the energy because I haven't done the exercises in a few months is the issue. Who knows. All I know is, failure is NOT an option! I want to hold my son again too much to give up! And this is the only way I can do it...well, that or dying. Not that I'm opposed to the latter but I can't cont on it happening soon enough. Astral traveling is probably quicker.
Today we put on a different brain wave generator. That was interesting, beside the usual white noise, there was some extra sounds in it, a kind of pulsing. I guess it is doin something to my brain waves, generating something with any luck. That's my hope anyway.
My intent is to do the exercises again tomorrow, but we have a few things going on so it might not be possible. I think I am going to work on the sponging exercise when I go to bed. If nothing else, it helps me fall asleep. Plus the sensation of it on my feet feels good when I can actually do it. I think I am also going to read a little from Astral Dynamics. It's a big enough book that I know I'll find a chapter that doesn't do my loaf in! Loaf; and Irish term for head.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Back In The Saddle Again
Geez! What a crazy week! I had every intention of starting the exercises again earlier this week, but then I was hit with all kinds of distractions. One day I had to help a friend move some things to a warehouse, then pick up one of Andrew's friends from school a few days. Then another one of Andrew's friends called and needed our help. He's had a lot of crap going on in his life and we told him our door was always open. He took advantage of it and has been with us for a few days to get away from the drama and chaos of his life at home.
BUT I was committed to starting up again even if I am a few days off schedule. I was going to do the exercises this afternoon but Andrew's friend was still sleeping in his room where I do the exercises. I want to give him a few days of peace to just be. No pressure or demands...for now.
I had to be at work at 6pm so I figured I'd have to start on Monday. I got off work early enough and decided to break the ice and just do the exercises on my own without Martin's help because he was working. I just wanted to get started again! I had to get back in the saddle!
I am definitely rusty. I only did 20 mins of the brain wave generator. Martin got me new headphones that are really comfy and drown out any outer noise but it didn't help me get my astral groove back. I was planning on doing 30-40mins. I couldn't get the sensations of the bouncy ball and raising energy like I use to. Maybe because it's so bloody freezin here in sunny SW FLA. We ain't use to this kind of cold weather for so long, a week now. My hands went numb from being so cold. I have the heat on but it wasn't enough.
I also worked on emptying my mind by saying relax, relax, over and over. It helped my body to relax and empty my mind...well sorta. I was having a bit of a hard time even with that too. Bummer. BUT at least I got started again. Tomorrow, Martin will be working with me and help me get back on track.
I am waiting on my book, Astral Travel for Beginners, to come in from Amazon. We carried it in our store when we had it, but out of all the books we still have from our store, that wasn't one of them. Bummer again. I do have the book, Astral Dynamics, but that one can do my head in at times. It can be so technical. I'm looking forward to Astral Travel for Beginners. It should be an easier read in between Astral Dynamics.
Sooooo I am planning on being back da mara(Irish for tomorrow) doing the exercises. I really need to be doing them everyday for a week to get back in the swing of things, we'll if that actually happens. The best laid plans of mice and men....
BUT I was committed to starting up again even if I am a few days off schedule. I was going to do the exercises this afternoon but Andrew's friend was still sleeping in his room where I do the exercises. I want to give him a few days of peace to just be. No pressure or demands...for now.
I had to be at work at 6pm so I figured I'd have to start on Monday. I got off work early enough and decided to break the ice and just do the exercises on my own without Martin's help because he was working. I just wanted to get started again! I had to get back in the saddle!
I am definitely rusty. I only did 20 mins of the brain wave generator. Martin got me new headphones that are really comfy and drown out any outer noise but it didn't help me get my astral groove back. I was planning on doing 30-40mins. I couldn't get the sensations of the bouncy ball and raising energy like I use to. Maybe because it's so bloody freezin here in sunny SW FLA. We ain't use to this kind of cold weather for so long, a week now. My hands went numb from being so cold. I have the heat on but it wasn't enough.
I also worked on emptying my mind by saying relax, relax, over and over. It helped my body to relax and empty my mind...well sorta. I was having a bit of a hard time even with that too. Bummer. BUT at least I got started again. Tomorrow, Martin will be working with me and help me get back on track.
I am waiting on my book, Astral Travel for Beginners, to come in from Amazon. We carried it in our store when we had it, but out of all the books we still have from our store, that wasn't one of them. Bummer again. I do have the book, Astral Dynamics, but that one can do my head in at times. It can be so technical. I'm looking forward to Astral Travel for Beginners. It should be an easier read in between Astral Dynamics.
Sooooo I am planning on being back da mara(Irish for tomorrow) doing the exercises. I really need to be doing them everyday for a week to get back in the swing of things, we'll if that actually happens. The best laid plans of mice and men....
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