As I mentioned in the comments on Day 6, this won't be in 90 days BUT I will be going thru all 90 days. It just might take 100 days or 120 days and the book says that is ok. They just don't want you jumping ahead. I won't do the exercises if I feel I am not able to focus on it properly and I just wasn't up for it yesterday (Tues). Had some mommy and daughter time yesterday instead.
I do remember a lot of dreams last night tho and know what they meant. Family issues and being left out. I saw pics of my sister, niece and great nephew in Germany last night which prompted these dreams. I haven't spoke to my mother since xmas eve 2007 and my sister since Mother's Day 2008. On a higher level I know it is best that I am left out. I don't need the agro and chaos that goes with the family. I honestly dont want it. I have Martin's family and that is just fine with me, I just wish they weren't so far away. On the lower level I hate missing out on watching my great nephew grow. I met him when he was an hour old on May 5th 2007 and he knocked my socks off! He smiled at me twice, looked into my eyes and there was this deep knowing of each other. It was wild! I also resent the fact that my family get to have a boy in their life when I lost mine! They get to replace my son with another boy. They get to ease their pain by having a young boy in their life. Why don't I get to have that? I don't run and hide from pain, I face it head on and heal it. SO yea, on a lower level, there's a bit of resentment with that. They get to be all dysfunctional, and what appears to be rewarded for it. Higher level knows better. But the lower level wants to know why they get to have this gapping hole that Andrew left behind, filled and we don't! Yet higher level knows there's so much more coming our way and we are happy enough now, happier than they are anyway. It's the whole Jekyll/Hyde thing again for me. At least I am acknowledging my shadow side in this situation and dealing with it.
Another part of my dream was the usual defending myself against my family, trying to wake them the hell up to who I really am! Tired of them making up who they think I am. Again, higher level KNOWS that ain't my job, lower level is frustrated with them for not getting it, and ALWAYS running from pain instead of healing it! And ALWAYS taking it out on me and making me the bad guy when it's their shit they won't look at! My mother is just carrying on the dysfunctional pattern of her mother and my sister is doing the same. Another part of the dream that I don't remember the details of, it's just a continuation of the family theme going on here. It was the feeling of me feeling inadequate and not good enough. Again, higher level knows that's a load of crap! It's good to get the lower level shit out so it can be looked at and healed. Something that my family is NOT familiar with. WOW I had a busy night! lol
Now onto the exercises...
No brain waving today, decided to take the option not to do it for a change. I did the usual body relaxation. I'm familiar with that one because I use that one in my prenatal exercise class that I taught in the 80's. The so called bouncie leg stimulation exercise wasn't bouncie at all. It was about getting sensation in my legs, like a sponge going up and down the inside of my legs like a pin ball. I am finding it more difficult to get the sensation with just my awareness on my legs. So I may have to spend a few days getting the hang of this exercise. We shall see. I will be working on it through out the day tomorrow.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
DAY 6
So once again I have no dream to journal about. Don't remember a thing. :-( Bad astral travel student!
Today's exercises were tougher, after the brain wave generator, I had to create feeling with my awareness in my legs. First the front of my legs, then the outside of my legs, then the inside of my legs from my toes to my hip joints. It would appear I may have some blockage in those energy fields. Yay for me! More work! I need to focus more on my legs' energy fields. I have enough of a hard time focusing on, well EVERYTHING! Now I gotta focus on my legs with making a brushing feeling with my awareness. arrrgh! Andrew really is getting a smack from me when I meet up with him again! Making me work this hard to spend time with him again is total BS! But I suppose there will be other rewards in being able to travel to other dimensions as well, and if I can travel there with him? BONUS! Hmmm can you tell that patience is not one of my strong suits? I know, it's subtle. ;-)
Tomorrow, Day 7 involves bouncy legs, sounds like fun! Probably have to do it with my "awareness" tho :-/
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Today's exercises were tougher, after the brain wave generator, I had to create feeling with my awareness in my legs. First the front of my legs, then the outside of my legs, then the inside of my legs from my toes to my hip joints. It would appear I may have some blockage in those energy fields. Yay for me! More work! I need to focus more on my legs' energy fields. I have enough of a hard time focusing on, well EVERYTHING! Now I gotta focus on my legs with making a brushing feeling with my awareness. arrrgh! Andrew really is getting a smack from me when I meet up with him again! Making me work this hard to spend time with him again is total BS! But I suppose there will be other rewards in being able to travel to other dimensions as well, and if I can travel there with him? BONUS! Hmmm can you tell that patience is not one of my strong suits? I know, it's subtle. ;-)
Tomorrow, Day 7 involves bouncy legs, sounds like fun! Probably have to do it with my "awareness" tho :-/
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Day 5
Alrighty then, I got no dreams to write about, didnt remember a thing other than I went somewhere and did something. Didn't even remember a few key words to write down so I would remember. Oh well, such is life, or sleep, or whatever, it is what it is I suppose.
I did the exercises late tonight at 11p.m. to shake it up a bit. Ok, I was busy harvesting crops on FarmVille and questing on School of Magic on Face Book and watching the Food Network. BUT I also went grocery shopping and on the treadmill earlier. Hey. it's Sunday, it's a kinda goofing around kind of day. *she says in her defense your Honor*
I did the optional brain wave generator, and during it I did the tensing and releasing of my body, then the breathing exercises, plus focusing on deep relaxation. I figured why not kill 2 or 3 birds with the one generator. Right? During the day I would work on the toe stimulation to see if I could get the sensation in my toes with just my awareness, and I could. Nothing Earth shattering vibration wise, but I would feel something.
As Martin would read to me from the book on what to do, my feet would react before he said anything, cool huh? It's like my feet are psychic or something! :-) So tonight when I go to bed, I will continue with the feet stimulation by my awareness exercises to strengthen that, muscle? Not sure what to call it.
It's All Good!
I did the exercises late tonight at 11p.m. to shake it up a bit. Ok, I was busy harvesting crops on FarmVille and questing on School of Magic on Face Book and watching the Food Network. BUT I also went grocery shopping and on the treadmill earlier. Hey. it's Sunday, it's a kinda goofing around kind of day. *she says in her defense your Honor*
I did the optional brain wave generator, and during it I did the tensing and releasing of my body, then the breathing exercises, plus focusing on deep relaxation. I figured why not kill 2 or 3 birds with the one generator. Right? During the day I would work on the toe stimulation to see if I could get the sensation in my toes with just my awareness, and I could. Nothing Earth shattering vibration wise, but I would feel something.
As Martin would read to me from the book on what to do, my feet would react before he said anything, cool huh? It's like my feet are psychic or something! :-) So tonight when I go to bed, I will continue with the feet stimulation by my awareness exercises to strengthen that, muscle? Not sure what to call it.
It's All Good!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
DAY 4
Ok, Ok, I know I skipped a day. I'll make up for it. I didn't have a dream to report yesterday, and was very tired and not up for the exercises. BUT I'm back today! :-D
Last night's dreams were, well, let's just say interesting because there were several of them. I didn't remember one of them until I was at Good Year Tires getting the oil changed in my car, and was told I needed back brakes. I had a dream last night that I was driving and hit the breaks and there were none. It's the first time I had a dream letting me know something ahead of time.
Another dream I was having was with one of my comedian friends that I picked to be a star when I first saw her at the Ca Funniest Female Finale in 2006, and she's on her way to stardom! I don't remember much of that dream other than going to her shows and hanging with her.
The other dream there was a few of us at our house, but not the house I live in now. I was trying to lock up the house as we were going to a gig but got distracted with animals. We had, now get this, 2 turkeys as pets! WTF?? I was even hugging one of them really loving on it! Abuh? Then as I went outside there was a HUGE tarannucula on a rock. I am afraid of spiders. Even so, this one was cool looking becuase it was like a pale, neon green with other pretty neon colors. Martin is the spider person so I made him move it out of our yard. I wanted to stomp on him (the spider, not Martin) but was having this whole respecting nature crap, feeling. The house we were in was an older quirky home, kinda small. Must represent something I'm sure. That's about all I remember.
Now onto the exercises. I did the brain wave generator for 20 mins and the time flew, I couldn't believe how fast the 20 mins went. I worked on relaxing my body and affirming what I want, during that time. I was back to the poogies ie toes exercises again tonight. It is a pain the ass doing it. I have to try and create feeling in my individual toes with my awareness! Sound easy? It's not! I'm even trying to do it as I type now. These are exercises I will be working on throughout the day so I can hopefully get the hang of this quicker. I do get a very subtle feeling in my toes during it and that is a good start. I guess I was expecting like major vibrations going on, but didn't get that. I want to hug my son so bad, I will do whatever it takes! So if I have to sit here and create feeling in my toes with my awareness, then gosh darnit that's what I'm going to do!
While I was doing the contracting muscles and releasing exercises to strengthen body awareness, we heard a noise behind Andrew's recliner where I was sitting and thought it was Merlin, it was not. We don't know what it was, so that was interesting.
That's all I got for now.
It's All Good!
Last night's dreams were, well, let's just say interesting because there were several of them. I didn't remember one of them until I was at Good Year Tires getting the oil changed in my car, and was told I needed back brakes. I had a dream last night that I was driving and hit the breaks and there were none. It's the first time I had a dream letting me know something ahead of time.
Another dream I was having was with one of my comedian friends that I picked to be a star when I first saw her at the Ca Funniest Female Finale in 2006, and she's on her way to stardom! I don't remember much of that dream other than going to her shows and hanging with her.
The other dream there was a few of us at our house, but not the house I live in now. I was trying to lock up the house as we were going to a gig but got distracted with animals. We had, now get this, 2 turkeys as pets! WTF?? I was even hugging one of them really loving on it! Abuh? Then as I went outside there was a HUGE tarannucula on a rock. I am afraid of spiders. Even so, this one was cool looking becuase it was like a pale, neon green with other pretty neon colors. Martin is the spider person so I made him move it out of our yard. I wanted to stomp on him (the spider, not Martin) but was having this whole respecting nature crap, feeling. The house we were in was an older quirky home, kinda small. Must represent something I'm sure. That's about all I remember.
Now onto the exercises. I did the brain wave generator for 20 mins and the time flew, I couldn't believe how fast the 20 mins went. I worked on relaxing my body and affirming what I want, during that time. I was back to the poogies ie toes exercises again tonight. It is a pain the ass doing it. I have to try and create feeling in my individual toes with my awareness! Sound easy? It's not! I'm even trying to do it as I type now. These are exercises I will be working on throughout the day so I can hopefully get the hang of this quicker. I do get a very subtle feeling in my toes during it and that is a good start. I guess I was expecting like major vibrations going on, but didn't get that. I want to hug my son so bad, I will do whatever it takes! So if I have to sit here and create feeling in my toes with my awareness, then gosh darnit that's what I'm going to do!
While I was doing the contracting muscles and releasing exercises to strengthen body awareness, we heard a noise behind Andrew's recliner where I was sitting and thought it was Merlin, it was not. We don't know what it was, so that was interesting.
That's all I got for now.
It's All Good!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
DAY 3
Dream Journal first since it's more interesting (?) than the exercises I did today. :-/ The book says writing your dreams is very important because it will help you remember your astral traveling sessions easier. You condition yourself to remember by writing them down.
I had several dreams since I had to get up at 6:50am to get Daniel off to school. SO the dream I had prior to that involved Gordan Ramsey at a culinary school I was at, which is a laugh since I'm not fond of cooking & in no way would you find me at a culinary anything! We were in a grocery store shopping for produce for a white sauce we had to make that used several different types of onions. Ramsey, in his infamous rants, went on about how we were forgetting the white onions which were the most important ingredient.
Jeremy is here now and said anything to do with the kitchen is about feeding yourself spiritually and nurturing your soul, which totally makes sense. It being a culinary school is about learning and what am I doing?? ;-)
Now the 2nd one I was in a college type atmosphere, there's that learning again. There was a kiosk in this part pf the college with this quirky old lady working it. She had expensive college books dirt cheap among other off beat items. Then I was at a couples' house I knew years ago, so I thought that was weird. It was even weirder that the husband went off to a secret room in his house to get high with his son or something. Knowing this couple, soooo not him. It was just weird. BUT it gets weirder.
Then I was in another scene with beauty pageant queens who were insisting that I get my lips tattooed with color.Two of them were trying to convince me that their color was better for me. Next thing I know my lips are split/cut into sections, (weird!) I feel how swollen my lips are, like I was wearing those big, red, wax lips or looked like those crazy ass bitches that get way too much plastic surgery. Then I feel the needle of the tattooing on my lips. I don't remember much of anything after that. Weird huh?? I get flashes of being in a huge house but no details.
As for today's exercises, pretty uneventful. I did the brain wave generator, it sounds so sci-fi don't it? All Oooooooo boogity boogity. I did the body relaxation, and breathing exercises. I had some success with the stimulation exercises.Not near as exciting as it might sound. While mild sensations, I at least had something happen. I worked with stimulating my thumbs and as Andrew called them my foot thumbs, better known as big toes. :-D In the exercises, you have to try and stimulate the energy centers of these areas with your mind so you can become aware of these energy centers. I did pretty good. So until next time...
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I had several dreams since I had to get up at 6:50am to get Daniel off to school. SO the dream I had prior to that involved Gordan Ramsey at a culinary school I was at, which is a laugh since I'm not fond of cooking & in no way would you find me at a culinary anything! We were in a grocery store shopping for produce for a white sauce we had to make that used several different types of onions. Ramsey, in his infamous rants, went on about how we were forgetting the white onions which were the most important ingredient.
Jeremy is here now and said anything to do with the kitchen is about feeding yourself spiritually and nurturing your soul, which totally makes sense. It being a culinary school is about learning and what am I doing?? ;-)
Now the 2nd one I was in a college type atmosphere, there's that learning again. There was a kiosk in this part pf the college with this quirky old lady working it. She had expensive college books dirt cheap among other off beat items. Then I was at a couples' house I knew years ago, so I thought that was weird. It was even weirder that the husband went off to a secret room in his house to get high with his son or something. Knowing this couple, soooo not him. It was just weird. BUT it gets weirder.
Then I was in another scene with beauty pageant queens who were insisting that I get my lips tattooed with color.Two of them were trying to convince me that their color was better for me. Next thing I know my lips are split/cut into sections, (weird!) I feel how swollen my lips are, like I was wearing those big, red, wax lips or looked like those crazy ass bitches that get way too much plastic surgery. Then I feel the needle of the tattooing on my lips. I don't remember much of anything after that. Weird huh?? I get flashes of being in a huge house but no details.
As for today's exercises, pretty uneventful. I did the brain wave generator, it sounds so sci-fi don't it? All Oooooooo boogity boogity. I did the body relaxation, and breathing exercises. I had some success with the stimulation exercises.Not near as exciting as it might sound. While mild sensations, I at least had something happen. I worked with stimulating my thumbs and as Andrew called them my foot thumbs, better known as big toes. :-D In the exercises, you have to try and stimulate the energy centers of these areas with your mind so you can become aware of these energy centers. I did pretty good. So until next time...
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
DAY 2
Well, I didn't have the galloping horses today, so I may not be so gung ho on taking up horse back riding now. Un-benounced to me, Martin can choose what brain wave generator he wants to use on me. I had no idea that there was even a choice of brain wave generator thingys, but apparently there is. It better not make me his love slave or anything or those authors are gonna hear from me!
At first I was finding these energy body stimulation exercises a pain in the ass, (yea, I know, it's only day 2) but today it was kinda cool. Probably because I didn't need a back scratcher to reach my freakin toe or another awkward place to reach. Today it was all about the thumb joint, I can reach that alls by myself! You have to so a circular motion on the thumb joint to create a tingling sensation, then try to recreate it with your mind, NOT EASY! But today I have to say it worked! I was able to do it! I was surprised. These exercises are to stimulate the energy body for separation. If it weren't for Martin talking me through it, I'm not sure I could keep this up. Like I have mentioned before, losing a child helps you lose your focus.
While listening to the brain wave generator, I could feel energy swirling in the palms of my hands, I love that feeling. I use to feel it very strongly when I would go to sleep at the Clown House while at All Children's. I will feel it now if I tune into it as I try to fall asleep.
Man! There is a lot to this conscious astral traveling! We do it every night, we just don't remember it. Well, if I can astral travel in 90 days and meet up with my son, then these exercises will all be worth it!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
At first I was finding these energy body stimulation exercises a pain in the ass, (yea, I know, it's only day 2) but today it was kinda cool. Probably because I didn't need a back scratcher to reach my freakin toe or another awkward place to reach. Today it was all about the thumb joint, I can reach that alls by myself! You have to so a circular motion on the thumb joint to create a tingling sensation, then try to recreate it with your mind, NOT EASY! But today I have to say it worked! I was able to do it! I was surprised. These exercises are to stimulate the energy body for separation. If it weren't for Martin talking me through it, I'm not sure I could keep this up. Like I have mentioned before, losing a child helps you lose your focus.
While listening to the brain wave generator, I could feel energy swirling in the palms of my hands, I love that feeling. I use to feel it very strongly when I would go to sleep at the Clown House while at All Children's. I will feel it now if I tune into it as I try to fall asleep.
Man! There is a lot to this conscious astral traveling! We do it every night, we just don't remember it. Well, if I can astral travel in 90 days and meet up with my son, then these exercises will all be worth it!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
DAY 1
Ok, I've started the 90 plan to astral traveling! Martin is my coach to make sure I stay on track. He's an avid astral traveler so he'll be a good coach...I think. ;-)
I listened to the optional brain wave generator because I wanna be on the fast track to astral traveling. Not sure I get, what sounds like a horse galloping in a circle, is all about. Glad I have no fear of horses or that would be tough. I may want to take up horse back riding now though!
The body tingling exercise is interesting. It's hard to recreate the feeling with your mind because once I'm relaxed I don't even feel my body and isn't that the goal? I guess we'll see.
Part of me (we all know which part that is) is still pissed I have to work so hard to see my son! I remember when all I had to do was walk past his room and see him at his computer twirling his hair into a little horn while watching John Denver videos on YouTube. All I had to do was walk in there and kiss him and give him a hug. Now I have to practice these exercises and get the hang of leaving my body to spend time with him. Hardly seems fair.WTF?
Now, my other side, the non mama gene side, whatever that is called, sees how by having Andrew on the Other Side forces me to raise my vibration, and see beyond the illusion that is the 3rd dimension. It is forcing me to grow. Forcing me to remember what is real. Forcing me to remember who I really am. Blah blah blah. Oops, mama gene again.
We'll see what day 2 brings. Day 1 was kinda boring. Off to read a supplemental book on OBEs now, it's part of the assignment. Hopefully I'll have some OBE symptoms tonight.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I listened to the optional brain wave generator because I wanna be on the fast track to astral traveling. Not sure I get, what sounds like a horse galloping in a circle, is all about. Glad I have no fear of horses or that would be tough. I may want to take up horse back riding now though!
The body tingling exercise is interesting. It's hard to recreate the feeling with your mind because once I'm relaxed I don't even feel my body and isn't that the goal? I guess we'll see.
Part of me (we all know which part that is) is still pissed I have to work so hard to see my son! I remember when all I had to do was walk past his room and see him at his computer twirling his hair into a little horn while watching John Denver videos on YouTube. All I had to do was walk in there and kiss him and give him a hug. Now I have to practice these exercises and get the hang of leaving my body to spend time with him. Hardly seems fair.WTF?
Now, my other side, the non mama gene side, whatever that is called, sees how by having Andrew on the Other Side forces me to raise my vibration, and see beyond the illusion that is the 3rd dimension. It is forcing me to grow. Forcing me to remember what is real. Forcing me to remember who I really am. Blah blah blah. Oops, mama gene again.
We'll see what day 2 brings. Day 1 was kinda boring. Off to read a supplemental book on OBEs now, it's part of the assignment. Hopefully I'll have some OBE symptoms tonight.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Counting It Down!
Counting down the days until I start my 90 day to astral travel program! Four more sleeps! :-0 I figure if I count it down, I'll create some excitement for myself. I'm excited and nervous. Excited at the prospect of having and OBE and astral traveling to see Andrew and spending time with him. Also exploring more dimensions. Maybe kick back at the ole castle for a bit to re-energize my self and remember more of who I really am. Excited at being a spiritual explorer. The possibilities are endless!
Then I'm nervous because what if I don't get it? X-0 What if I drop the ball on it yet again? Yada, yada, yada, blah, blah blah. Typical ego talk. I will be spending the weekend energetically and mentally preparing myself, energetically preparing Andrew's room. Visualizing me succeeding at this. Giving myself a pep talk that I can see this through and be SUCCESSFUL at it. SO that is what I will be doing this weekend. I may even practice a few of the exercises to get a feel for it.
I will also be blogging on here my dream journal. I'm putting it all here baby!
No matter what, Day 1 begins on Monday Sept 21, 2009!
Then I'm nervous because what if I don't get it? X-0 What if I drop the ball on it yet again? Yada, yada, yada, blah, blah blah. Typical ego talk. I will be spending the weekend energetically and mentally preparing myself, energetically preparing Andrew's room. Visualizing me succeeding at this. Giving myself a pep talk that I can see this through and be SUCCESSFUL at it. SO that is what I will be doing this weekend. I may even practice a few of the exercises to get a feel for it.
I will also be blogging on here my dream journal. I'm putting it all here baby!
No matter what, Day 1 begins on Monday Sept 21, 2009!
Friday, September 11, 2009
MASTERING ASTRAL TRAVEL IN 90 DAYS!
Well, that's my goal anyways!
Ever since my son Andrew made his transition to the Other Side, I have been wanting to consciously astral travel to meet up with him. Martin, my husband, does it all of the time which is why he is so good at what he does, a professional medium. He has been astral traveling long before Andrew left here. For those that may not know, I shouldn't assume only those that know me are reading this, my son Andrew crossed on Oct 22, 2007 at 16yo, 4 months after a rare leukemia diagnosis. For more info on our journey w/him through all of this, go to http://www.healive.org it's ALL there on my blog. We are still trying to find our way back from this devastating event.
So I decided in order to motivate me into sticking with learning to consciosly astral travel, I would blog about it. There is a book that has a 90 plan to learn how to astral travel. There are exercises to do everyday. I have started it then quit. I tried on our forum on http://www.healive.org to get an astral travel group started, but again, I didn't stick to it. You see, when you lose a child, it's hard to stay focused on anything for any length of time. We are coming up on the 2nd anniversary of Andrew's transition so I think I may be in a slightly better place to try again. And by announcing it here and promising to blog about it, well, it makes me accountable.
I have been reading books on astral traveling these past 2 yrs. It is so fascinating! The adventures and knowledge people have gained through astral travel is astounding. One author calls astral travelers spiritual explorers, which they are. It is our birth right to be able to do so, but because of religious dogmas & fear we forget how to consciously do it. We do it every night! We just don't remember that we do,which would explain dejevu. And when people do remember an out of body experience, OBE, it usually scares the hell outta them because they don't understand it.
The symptoms of an OBE can be quite scary if you don't now what is going on. I didn't really know what the symptoms were so when I was vibrating so much the week after Andrew left when I laid down, I didn't realize I was on the brink of an OBE. If I had of known I woulda worked harder on having an OBE instead of thinking "Wow this feels cool! Feels like I'm vibrating off the bed!" When actually I was on the verge vibrating out of my body! I even blogged about how much I was vibrating. I experienced it for the next few months after Andrew left. It was the most intense the week after though.
As I was reading more about astral traveling, I would practice it at night and definitely felt the vibration and got the symptoms of an OBE which then leads to astral travel if you choose. What stopped me is that I would get all excited about it and stopped the process or I'd fall asleep which is quite normal.
Did you ever feel like someone was sitting on your chest upon waking? Like you felt paralyzed? Well, that my friends is re-entry into your body! When your mind woke up before your body.OR ever wake up with uncontrollable chills? Again, re-entry.
SO when am I starting this little adventure? When I get my house back to myself again so probably in a week or so. We have a friend Tammy and her 2 kids, Daniel and Cassie stayin w/us at the moment. So that's my excuse anyway! ;-) I'll be spending this time mentally prepping myself so I will stick to it this time. Knowing I have to report back here will help too. Making a commitment to blog every step and every day I know will make me stick to it the whole 90 days. You'd think the reward would be enough, seeing my son, but for what ever reason, it hasn't been. Maybe because it has seemed like too much work. Remember, the lack of focus?
So for those that will be following me, thank you! I hope to take you on a fun & enlightening adventure!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Ever since my son Andrew made his transition to the Other Side, I have been wanting to consciously astral travel to meet up with him. Martin, my husband, does it all of the time which is why he is so good at what he does, a professional medium. He has been astral traveling long before Andrew left here. For those that may not know, I shouldn't assume only those that know me are reading this, my son Andrew crossed on Oct 22, 2007 at 16yo, 4 months after a rare leukemia diagnosis. For more info on our journey w/him through all of this, go to http://www.healive.org it's ALL there on my blog. We are still trying to find our way back from this devastating event.
So I decided in order to motivate me into sticking with learning to consciosly astral travel, I would blog about it. There is a book that has a 90 plan to learn how to astral travel. There are exercises to do everyday. I have started it then quit. I tried on our forum on http://www.healive.org to get an astral travel group started, but again, I didn't stick to it. You see, when you lose a child, it's hard to stay focused on anything for any length of time. We are coming up on the 2nd anniversary of Andrew's transition so I think I may be in a slightly better place to try again. And by announcing it here and promising to blog about it, well, it makes me accountable.
I have been reading books on astral traveling these past 2 yrs. It is so fascinating! The adventures and knowledge people have gained through astral travel is astounding. One author calls astral travelers spiritual explorers, which they are. It is our birth right to be able to do so, but because of religious dogmas & fear we forget how to consciously do it. We do it every night! We just don't remember that we do,which would explain dejevu. And when people do remember an out of body experience, OBE, it usually scares the hell outta them because they don't understand it.
The symptoms of an OBE can be quite scary if you don't now what is going on. I didn't really know what the symptoms were so when I was vibrating so much the week after Andrew left when I laid down, I didn't realize I was on the brink of an OBE. If I had of known I woulda worked harder on having an OBE instead of thinking "Wow this feels cool! Feels like I'm vibrating off the bed!" When actually I was on the verge vibrating out of my body! I even blogged about how much I was vibrating. I experienced it for the next few months after Andrew left. It was the most intense the week after though.
As I was reading more about astral traveling, I would practice it at night and definitely felt the vibration and got the symptoms of an OBE which then leads to astral travel if you choose. What stopped me is that I would get all excited about it and stopped the process or I'd fall asleep which is quite normal.
Did you ever feel like someone was sitting on your chest upon waking? Like you felt paralyzed? Well, that my friends is re-entry into your body! When your mind woke up before your body.OR ever wake up with uncontrollable chills? Again, re-entry.
SO when am I starting this little adventure? When I get my house back to myself again so probably in a week or so. We have a friend Tammy and her 2 kids, Daniel and Cassie stayin w/us at the moment. So that's my excuse anyway! ;-) I'll be spending this time mentally prepping myself so I will stick to it this time. Knowing I have to report back here will help too. Making a commitment to blog every step and every day I know will make me stick to it the whole 90 days. You'd think the reward would be enough, seeing my son, but for what ever reason, it hasn't been. Maybe because it has seemed like too much work. Remember, the lack of focus?
So for those that will be following me, thank you! I hope to take you on a fun & enlightening adventure!
IT'S ALL GOOD!
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